Well, you know, after all that bitching and moaning yesterday about my job (which I have since removed on the off chance a co-worker or superior sees it), I actually had a really good day at work today. I was really on the ball and got a lot of things done. I will admit that when I got there in the morning I totally didn't want to be there or do anything. I think the lab manager did a lot to get me motivated, because I was actually enjoying my job, partly because of the realization that "yeah, I can do this."
I just hope it doesn't all come crashing down. I said in my last entry repeatedly that I hate my job. I don't think I'm ever going to find it to be all that enjoyable, but I have been working there for over two months now, so obviously I have it in me to tolerate the bad parts.
It would be a drastic move to quit. If I can keep doing well from now on, I think I'll be in good shape. If, in another month, I return to hating my job, then I'll re-evaluate the situation. I just hope things continue to go as well as they did today. I was totally on the ball. On fire.
I don't want to jinx it though so that's all I will say about that.
I had a strangely good night last night. Started off bad, but the end result was good.
At 9pm every night my watch beeps to remind me to take my medication. My watch beeped, I went into the bathroom where all my pills are, and OH NO! I ran out of my antipsychotic! It's hard to sleep if I haven't had it, so I knew I had to go drive to the 24 hour pharmacy and get it filled. I also knew that there is a big two-story Borders Books a few stores down from the pharmacy, so I thought "hey, why not look for a Norwegian lesson book while I'm out?" I figured it'd be closed though.
So I got in the car and headed for the pharmacy. Unfortunately to get to the pharmacy I have to take pretty much the same route as I take to work (the pharmacy is about halfway on the way to work) and that felt really unpleasant.
I came up on a left turn light, and it was green as I approached, but quickly turned red. I knew I was going to be sitting there for a long time waiting for it to turn, and I wanted to take my mind off of things. Anniemal was paused in my car stereo (and had been for a few weeks), but I was feeling pretty sick of the album so I wasn't sure I'd be able to listen to it.
I unpaused it and skipped to Chewing Gum, and (as has happened in the past after taking long breaks from the album) I felt chills! I felt really happy and had a big smile on my face.
So the light turned green and I was listening to Anniemal feeling pretty good. I got to the pharmacy and dropped off my prescription, and was told it would take about 10-15 minutes, which I thought was great because in the past I've been told more like 45.
It was almost 9:30 and I was convinced the Borders down the way had closed at 9. I dejectedly walked towards the storefront thinking "the lights look dark; it's closed" and suddenly I see people browsing in there! The sign on the door said it closes at 10pm!
I rushed in there and checked the directory for wherever the language learning books would be. Then I saw "reference" was on the lower level so I rushed down there. Got to the foot of the stairs and walked a ways in, and craned my neck to look for the reference section. Found it, walked over, and looked for the language books. First there were a bunch of English dictionaries and things, but then I saw to my right stuff like French and Chinese.
The books were organized alphabetically by language, and N was WAY the hell to the right a couple of shelves over. And then I found it: NORWEGIAN!!!! I grabbed it, brought it upstairs to the register, and paid $30 for:
Anyway I went back to the pharmacy after that happy little purchase and they already had my prescription ready for me even though I don't think I'd been more than 5 minutes!
Then when I got in the car and Anniemal came on again I suddenly thought "wow I'm going to be learning the language she speaks!"
And then I drove home and felt slightly oppressed by the prospect of work but felt happier having a Norwegian lesson book finally, and happy too that I listened to Annie and discovered that I wasn't sick of it anymore.
This morning for some reason I woke up around 4:30am. Sometimes that just randomly happens. Actually lately I keep waking up before the alarm, but before today I would just say in bed until it did ring, and stay in bed all up until I had to leave. This morning, though, I got up and got on my computer. I even played Soul Blazer for a while on my SNES. And I ripped the Norwegian CDs to mp3 so I can listen on my computer and/or burn copies to listen to at home (since I planned to take the original CDs to my car [which doesn't play CDRs very well]).
So on the way to work I was listening to the Norwegian lesson CD. It was actually kind of distracting and I think I must have been driving slower than usual because I had left on time but got to work 5 minutes late. Anyway I recently remembered that I get really shy when I have to repeat after somebody when I'm learning a language. So I felt a bit shy repeating after the CD. At least I knew nobody could hear me (although perhaps they could see me, but I'd rather not think about that because it'll make me self-conscious).
It was hard to hear the lesson over the car noise and noise of the surrounding traffic, plus I couldn't look at the book while I was driving so I couldn't see the words they were having me say, so I couldn't tell if I was getting them right. Later tonight I'll sit down with my CD player and listen to the disc in the quiet of my room.
But anyway yadda yadda yadda, jeg lrer norsk and all that. I don't feel like writing any more at the moment so I will leave you there for now. Here is a picture:
(P.S. I switched my keyboard to Norwegian so I can type and really easily now but I have to get used to all the differences in where things like the apostrophe ' and other things are. I found an image online of a Norwegian keyboard overlay and have made it my desktop so if I ever need to figure it out quick I just view desktop and look at the image.)
(P.P.S. WOW I discovered some Norwegian radio podcasts!!! I'm downloading a nature show right now
)
I just hope it doesn't all come crashing down. I said in my last entry repeatedly that I hate my job. I don't think I'm ever going to find it to be all that enjoyable, but I have been working there for over two months now, so obviously I have it in me to tolerate the bad parts.
It would be a drastic move to quit. If I can keep doing well from now on, I think I'll be in good shape. If, in another month, I return to hating my job, then I'll re-evaluate the situation. I just hope things continue to go as well as they did today. I was totally on the ball. On fire.
I don't want to jinx it though so that's all I will say about that.
I had a strangely good night last night. Started off bad, but the end result was good.
At 9pm every night my watch beeps to remind me to take my medication. My watch beeped, I went into the bathroom where all my pills are, and OH NO! I ran out of my antipsychotic! It's hard to sleep if I haven't had it, so I knew I had to go drive to the 24 hour pharmacy and get it filled. I also knew that there is a big two-story Borders Books a few stores down from the pharmacy, so I thought "hey, why not look for a Norwegian lesson book while I'm out?" I figured it'd be closed though.
So I got in the car and headed for the pharmacy. Unfortunately to get to the pharmacy I have to take pretty much the same route as I take to work (the pharmacy is about halfway on the way to work) and that felt really unpleasant.
I came up on a left turn light, and it was green as I approached, but quickly turned red. I knew I was going to be sitting there for a long time waiting for it to turn, and I wanted to take my mind off of things. Anniemal was paused in my car stereo (and had been for a few weeks), but I was feeling pretty sick of the album so I wasn't sure I'd be able to listen to it.
I unpaused it and skipped to Chewing Gum, and (as has happened in the past after taking long breaks from the album) I felt chills! I felt really happy and had a big smile on my face.
So the light turned green and I was listening to Anniemal feeling pretty good. I got to the pharmacy and dropped off my prescription, and was told it would take about 10-15 minutes, which I thought was great because in the past I've been told more like 45.
It was almost 9:30 and I was convinced the Borders down the way had closed at 9. I dejectedly walked towards the storefront thinking "the lights look dark; it's closed" and suddenly I see people browsing in there! The sign on the door said it closes at 10pm!
I rushed in there and checked the directory for wherever the language learning books would be. Then I saw "reference" was on the lower level so I rushed down there. Got to the foot of the stairs and walked a ways in, and craned my neck to look for the reference section. Found it, walked over, and looked for the language books. First there were a bunch of English dictionaries and things, but then I saw to my right stuff like French and Chinese.
The books were organized alphabetically by language, and N was WAY the hell to the right a couple of shelves over. And then I found it: NORWEGIAN!!!! I grabbed it, brought it upstairs to the register, and paid $30 for:
Anyway I went back to the pharmacy after that happy little purchase and they already had my prescription ready for me even though I don't think I'd been more than 5 minutes!
Then when I got in the car and Anniemal came on again I suddenly thought "wow I'm going to be learning the language she speaks!"
And then I drove home and felt slightly oppressed by the prospect of work but felt happier having a Norwegian lesson book finally, and happy too that I listened to Annie and discovered that I wasn't sick of it anymore.
This morning for some reason I woke up around 4:30am. Sometimes that just randomly happens. Actually lately I keep waking up before the alarm, but before today I would just say in bed until it did ring, and stay in bed all up until I had to leave. This morning, though, I got up and got on my computer. I even played Soul Blazer for a while on my SNES. And I ripped the Norwegian CDs to mp3 so I can listen on my computer and/or burn copies to listen to at home (since I planned to take the original CDs to my car [which doesn't play CDRs very well]).
So on the way to work I was listening to the Norwegian lesson CD. It was actually kind of distracting and I think I must have been driving slower than usual because I had left on time but got to work 5 minutes late. Anyway I recently remembered that I get really shy when I have to repeat after somebody when I'm learning a language. So I felt a bit shy repeating after the CD. At least I knew nobody could hear me (although perhaps they could see me, but I'd rather not think about that because it'll make me self-conscious).
It was hard to hear the lesson over the car noise and noise of the surrounding traffic, plus I couldn't look at the book while I was driving so I couldn't see the words they were having me say, so I couldn't tell if I was getting them right. Later tonight I'll sit down with my CD player and listen to the disc in the quiet of my room.
But anyway yadda yadda yadda, jeg lrer norsk and all that. I don't feel like writing any more at the moment so I will leave you there for now. Here is a picture:
(P.S. I switched my keyboard to Norwegian so I can type and really easily now but I have to get used to all the differences in where things like the apostrophe ' and other things are. I found an image online of a Norwegian keyboard overlay and have made it my desktop so if I ever need to figure it out quick I just view desktop and look at the image.)
(P.P.S. WOW I discovered some Norwegian radio podcasts!!! I'm downloading a nature show right now
)
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and then I'll be like "wow...I am getting sick of them..."
So I'll stop for a week or two...
then one day I will pop in "Severe Tire Damage" and as soon as "Dr. Worm" starts playing and I hear that opening trumphet...
I am hooked again.
Amazing what effects music can have on our minds, isn't it?
We should try more of a conversation than...
"Can I get to my beer....thanks."