lily

we stood there, eye to eye.
"Give me your knife" I said
"What for?"
"So you can keep a piece of me.
I hacked off a chunk of my hair and put it in his pocket.
he smiled that floater careless smile
We were still sweaty from the parliament show. I got to get backstage to meet george clinton. i walked up to him to say hello but before i could even speak he held onto my hand as if reading into my eyes or brain and said "Love can happen in only minutes you have to grab onto it and never let it go.
I told my departing friend about those words, he just laughed that careless laugh again and walked off into the night, onto that train that would take him far away from me.He turned around for and instand and yelled "I love you Lily"........
Yeah I love you too. If only you weren't so scared to hold on, if only you weren't such a lost angel.
The night before we sat in that cheap motel, a motel i used to bring tricks to back when i worked that corner with my pretty broken whores. but this was no trick. He put his fingers inside me like no trick ever could and i felt like i was going to explode.The english language only has one word for love, the french have like six. "Fuck me" I told him.
"I can't fuck you, Lily."
"Why"
"Because it wouldn't be fucking, it would be making love and i haven't done that in years and the results always hurt."
And i knew somewhere in brooklyn i was breaking someones heart, someone i loved so much.
I inhaled my cigarette and wiped away the tears and just kept thinking about what george clinton said.
Love, Lily