lily

We sat there on the hotel room bed. outside was a sea of vampires. Now that we had this illusion of safety he handed me a roll of money. I think they were all 20's. I counted it. "You said you were going to give me more than this." I whispered. he handed me another roll. I went to take it from his sweaty hairy hands. He held on. Looked straight into me. Brown eyes into blue. "No condom" He says "And we have to kiss, Like girlfriend and boyfriend." Smile spread across. I took the money "Of course" I said. He began removing his clothes, Vodka breathe, hairy body, lankiness, Repulsion, flappy skin, Dirty penis.
I walked to the bathroom. My bag was by the door the whole time. I watched him from the mirror. "It's a pretty shitty thing to try to fuck your whores with no condom" I said loud enough for old man to hear. Opened that door and ran. "Hey, Wait a minute Bitch, I paid for you." Was all i heard him say.
Robbing tricks is more fun than whipping them, pissing on them, dancing for them, jerking them, kissing them But Maew says i need a real Job in early morning, Sleepy eyed from methadone. One day................
What i really want though is some form of sanctuary. My own little side of the universe to record my own dreams in.
Love, Lily