lily

I exist in a constant dreamlike state, Succeeded in nullifying my existance. Not quite living, Not quite dead. It's that in between point that has me still breathing. Crazy bill told me that my central nervous system is all fucked up, That i twitch out in my sleep and grind my teeth, Bite my lip until it bleeds, and move with lack of rythm. I don't know how I'm going to be a stripper with all these bruises splashing my skin purple and blue or even remember where they came from most of the time. Bill feeds me organic food that his case manager takes him to buy. He lives completely off of all of your tax dollars because he is completely insane. haha. He tells me that i'm the bitch marilyn monroe rockstar and he's the crazy existentialist scientist, But he says we have to keep it on the DL. After all shh people are trying to kill us. So i'm Susie Creamcheese and he's mr. Billy smiles. I start working tonight, After a few weeks here, If i can make enough money and get myself in a healthier condition, I'm back on the rails and will go to arizonia for a little while. I miss the desert air.