lillith1983

So its been a week or so since I last updated.
My sons birthday party was good . I should say it went well for my son . Me on the other hand ...HA. My mother and I ended up getting into a huge fight ( we havent had a fight since I was 17) After the fight we didnt talk for 4 days . It was crazy .

My sister ended up getting kicked out of the house for a few days. She is back now . i thought it was funny . She talked it up alot before she left. Then she wasnt gone a day before she was calling try to to act all sweet . Ha Ha

Ok ...so my sons actual birthday was this past saturday . It was kinda funny , I recieved a few odd phone calls . No of them from who i expected. I DIDNT here from his dad or his grandmother (dads mom) . I did other hand here from his best friend. Which through me for a loop , so much so , that it almost made me sick to my stomach .
It wasnt who I was talking to , that made me sick . I guess that it was just knowing that I was so close to talking to my sons father .
To fill you in , I havent heard from him in 8 months . He just ran off to another state . I havent heard a word from him or recieved a cent . And this friend that called lives in the same state that he does. So it was kinda hard.

Its weird how ,just as I get to the point where I dont care anymore , Ya know Im ok With the fact that he is gone . ....In a instant all the feelings can be brought back . Ya know" where is he , whats he doing,how could just walk away from his son , why wasnt he the one to call and tell tell his son h appy birthday ?" AHH! < sighs >

Ok , i guess that is enough ranting for now .....Sorry guys


Im off for now .
Much love to you guys
Later