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I miss my Nanny and it fucking hurts. I can't even put it into words.

I also cleared my loft out yesterday and found loads of old things including my ex's old childhood 'Shoot' and 'Match' magazines. I'll admit it and say I beat him up a few times. I treated him like absolute shit and all he ever did was love me. Now who's...
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crashboy:
To me you seem to be a person who gives openly and that is a beautiful quality. When there is nothing left emotionally to give others, it is time give back to yourself. Allow yourself to grieve and mend. Believe in who you are and gain strength from that. From what has been written about you here, there will be no way that the good energy you give to others will not come back to you tenfold. I was moved and shed a tear reading your words, but I know that although life will be different from now, in time, your smile will return.
My warmest to you from far away. x
billytheseal:
owww...that course sounds...interesting....hpoe you get through it ok smile

glad I could make you smile as well x
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I really don't know what's going on in my head right now so I'm not going to say anything at all.

I'll be hovering about every so often and keeping an eye on my group but apart from that, I really NEED to crawl back into my hole for a while.

Sorry frown
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lior:
*hug* Take care of yourself Em.
forcefield:
Cool. Of course.

xxx
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So it's been a few days now since my Nanny passed away. It's an extremely weird time for us all. When I say us all I mean mainly myself, my Mum and my sister. We have gotten really close since Saturday and it's exactly the opposite of what I always imagined it to be confused

It's good though and I'm enjoying having my family around me,...
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pandara:
frown xo
timskin:
Thanks! Hopefully things are getting somewhere! And maybe soon it will feel like it!!

I'm sorry to hear of your loss, I hope everything goes as well as it can do with the arrangements. Just accept this will take some time and everything else can wait a while.

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I've just had a call from my mum to say that Nanny is not well and is being transferred back to the hospital. Her breathing is bad again.

I'm just getting ready and then I'll be off to the hospital to see her.

Please everyone, pray hard for her, I can't lose her yet, I just can't.
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narshada:
You'll both be in my thoughts.
violetred:
i am sorry about your loss frown *hugs*
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I'm back! Did you miss me?! tongue

It was one hell of a week - I feel exhausted like never before but it was good smile

I've finally caught onto the pear cider and I loves it! I was really good at limiting myself to enough to get pissed every day but not so's I had the hangover from hell the next day smile

Pictures and stories to...
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tattoo_fatoe:
I missed you! Good to hear you've had a good time!
I am sorry about your nanny... frown How is she doing now?
kiss
xalicex:
hope your nanny gets to come home as soon as poss, it must be hard being away from her frown
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So today is the day I leave for Reading, gah! I'm only halfway through the first report, the other one is going to have to wait until I get back. Still, the 2nd one will be a lot easier and I'm not stressing too much about that smile

I still have a shit load to do today and I'm stressing about that instead! Why can I...
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lior:
Thanks hon, you always know exactly what to say to make me feel better.
rdpixie:
Hope Reading was entirely awesome!!!
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Sorry I've not been about much lately guys, I'm off to Reading Festival for a week next Monday and I've got a shit load of work to do before then!

Hopefully proper service will resume come September smile

Love you all smile xx
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kittenbot:
I mss you... but it makes me smile that you are busy and seemingly happy! When you ar ehappy I am happy.

I really mean that! tongue
davy:
hey, have fun at reading festival! Monday is abit early isn't it!!!
OK, photo explanation.... i moved to a diffenret hotel last week and it's all very interiro designer dark browns with green glass and spotlights... all very wierd... it's like it was designed by an 18 year old boy lol... but very funky all the same.... it's just a shame the food is crap! lol
... andway, i hope the work has all gone ok and you all ready for reading... it lookm like the weather might be ok as well!
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This is a question to all my girly SG friends (male friends, please move along for today - there is nothing to see here):

SPOILERS! (Click to view)
So girls, my boobs hurt. Like almost as painful as early pregnancy boobs frown They're swollen badly and I'm having to wear my pregnancy bras all the time now, even in bed, just so I can move about...
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lior:
I'd thought about hiring a car but I don't know if that would be wise driving all that way with jetlag. And I really don't want to have to stay in London too long to get over jetlag - its too expensive frown
lior:
She didn't! How can someone be so uncaring and selfish?

Wow, I guess they are from the same pod. At least we're didn't turn out like them.
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I should be celebrating my baby's 1st birthday today. But I'm not.

Weirdly though, I'm ok smile
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mydogfarted:
smile
tiger_fodder:
Try this. I'm glad you are doing good.

I thought Emiliana was Italian. What is she doing in Brighton? wink
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I've had a lovely day today. I stayed at Sars last night and we watched BB while filling our fat faces on Black Forest Gateau, my favourite! love

Got up at 10.10am this morning and had a lovely soak in Sarah's tub (my immersion heater is fooked at the moment and I can't afford to get it fixed - lucky I've got an electric shower!) Yes,...
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timskin:
It feels more like punishment than dedication! hehe!

And thanks! smile
pandara:
Rest? My head gets funny when I slow down to much.