lil_em

Tuesday night already huh. How's the start of your week been?

Mine has been shite and awesome, let me explain:

So after a really busy weekend, doing all the chores, gutting my bedroom and bathroom, getting spikes and allsorts, I woke up Monday morning really not wanting to be here. This was a bitter disappointment as I'd had so much motivation up until that point. I spent all day on the sofa, feeling sorry for myself. It was like I was utterly depressed but I had no idea why. I knew I'd be tired because of the weekend and working til midnight Sunday night but still, I just didn't feel right and couldn't put my finger on why.

Then last night I had the Angels & Airwaves gig with Sars. Now, if it had been up to me I'd have stayed home feeling like shit, but there was no way I would let Sarah down so I had a nice hot bath, got ready and went over to Southampton to pick Sarah up. Well, all I can say is WOW! I'm soooooooo glad I went; what a fucking awesome show. Considering I only know a couple of songs of theirs well enough to sing along, it was one of the best gigs I've ever seen, and I've seen A LOT of bands over the last few years.

One particular song got me so much in my heart that I burst into tears and cried the whole way through it. Tears were dripping off my chin and everything! It was a nice cry though; it was the fact that the lyrics sing over and over the words I love you. I sang along to the song singing it to Pip, it was really cathartic. For those who are interested how it goes, here's a little preview:



Absolutely gorgeous song, I love it and it will always remind me of that moment

We pretty much stayed at the back of the place last night to save getting elbowed in the face etc., so my pictures are a bit crap but here you are anyway:

I realised after the gig last night too, what was wrong with the Good Charlotte gig last week and why I came home feeling let down and it was because there was no sincerity by brothers Madden on stage. It was really good to hear some songs that I didn't expect them to play last week and as always the musical content of the show was awesome but when they spoke to the audience, it was the same old shit. It suddenly occured to me last night that they were like robots and just going through the motions, this makes me incredibly sad.

Now, Tom DeLonge last night, and the rest of AVA were truly sincere and played each and every song putting their heart and soul, their everyting into every chord. I felt it. And the words spoken to us by Tom, were truly awe-inspiring. They really do want to make a difference with their music. The gig last night really affected me in a good way and I would urge each and every one of you; if you ever get the chance to see them live, do it. I promise you won't regret it

If not, why not download their albums: We Don't Need to Whisper and I-Empire - both are fucking awesome.

In other news, I'm still incredibly skint; I seriously need to get some more work in. The website is currently with the developers and I'm hoping that we'll be working on putting the new pages up by the end of this week, I really can't wait as I think it'll bring in much more business for us.

I've got a gobful of bloody ulcers too; not good. I guess I'm still pretty run down and where I've been extremely slothlike over the last few months, I probably overdid it the weekend

It was my Mum's birthday yesterday, I delivered her card to her on Saturday when she wasn't home. Based on the fact that since I told her the problems I'm having right now, she's not contacted me once, I don't want to see her at the moment.

Just going through the current news stories as well and found this. Fuck I hate that Otis Ferry. Roll on him actually getting punished for his loutish behaviour, he really is a fucking yob who thinks he's above the law.

Also, some fella in NY has paid $1.5m for a sex tape of Marilyn Monroe, but he's going to keep it private out of respect for Ms. Monroe. I think she is one of the most beautiful women the world has ever seen

The story that has really gripped me today however is this one. Some 400 children have been removed from a polygamist sect in Texas. Poor little bastards. While I reserve judgement on what exactly has gone on behind closed doors there, I can't help but shudder to think how absolutely petrified those poor babies must feel right now. Most of them would never have experienced anything in the outside world at all. My thoughts are with them right now and I hope they're not feeling too lonely and scared.

What else? Oh yeah, I've still not had a response to my complaint to staff about the offensive photograph in the SG's blog. I won't let this go and will chase them up again if I don't hear back from them soon.

I've been a busy girl today too. While the gig last night was truly uplifting, I woke up again this morning with the same meh head on so I decided to do something about it. I got up, got dressed and took Tessie into the office for a few hours to work and managed to get quite a lot done. Then I dropped her off home again about 3 so she could have a kip indoors, and I went to Subway and then back to the office til about 5ish and got a bit more done. My main aim though was to get my tattoo design printed off so that I could get a quote from the tattooist down the road. Anyway, it's all done; he's quoted me 15 and I'm getting it done tomorrow afternoon, woohoo!! I've also asked him to draw up a couple of birdies feet so that I can have them tattooed behind my right ear; he's gonna have that done for when I go in tomorrow too. Result. I can't wait

Right then, that's enough from me for another day. It's gone 7pm and Tessie hasn't had her dinner yet, oops.

xx