So i'm drunk, and you know what? I dont give a shit. Yeah, so ive been drunk every night for the past two weeks..so yeah, ive been drinking during work again, and in the morning..but GODDAMMIT, it's the only thing left in my life that seems to make sense. Drink: get drunk. Cause and effect. no confusing thigns that boggle my mind, no unknown endings...drink: get drunk. That's it. I LOVE the simplicity of it all.
DAMMIT FUCK SHIT I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW. Ive got all this rage boiling up inside of me, and I dont know why. Depression and lonelesness creeping up my spine. The meds aren't working...I'm slipping back. Slipping back into the horrible grayness of depression, so I need to hold onto this rage. Because once that goes, i'm gonna be empty again. ANd I can't be empty again, not ever, because last time it nearly killed me. This time, it will.
Eh. Dont mind me. I'm just depressed. I'll take some meds, happiness in a bottle, will get my chemistry working properly again, and everything will be fine.
DAMMIT FUCK SHIT I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW. Ive got all this rage boiling up inside of me, and I dont know why. Depression and lonelesness creeping up my spine. The meds aren't working...I'm slipping back. Slipping back into the horrible grayness of depression, so I need to hold onto this rage. Because once that goes, i'm gonna be empty again. ANd I can't be empty again, not ever, because last time it nearly killed me. This time, it will.
Eh. Dont mind me. I'm just depressed. I'll take some meds, happiness in a bottle, will get my chemistry working properly again, and everything will be fine.