lightbulbjack

Im kind of having a bad day. The last several Saturdays have been kind of tough. I work Sun-Thurs, so Saturday is like my Sunday, end of the weekend back to work. Ive been having a hard time not letting my depression get the best of me with all the shit going on at work. Its wearing me down. Did you ever have one of those moments where you just wanted to through in the towel and give up?

Im tired, Im lonely and right now Im feeling pretty pathetic. I think the only thing thats going to change with a nights sleep is that I wont be so tired.

NORBERT_SYKES asked in his journal the other day if it was possible for a man to change his stars. I hope it is. Im trying but its not easy.

Part of me wants to just blow my mind out on this page and list everything thats bringing me down. The other part knows that Ill regret opening myself up so much and letting people see the real me that is in a constant state of war with myself.

So tomorrow Ill get up and go to work and smile like everything if fine. There was a time when I liked my life. I just wish it didnt feel like Ill never get there again.