lexxus

Wicked nightmares last night....I am pretty sure, i attempted to murder someone in one of my dreams, he lived, but it still makes me uneasy. Blah. can i have one night of happy dreams??? Well i have to shower and stuff. Later

So i am writing right now because i was laying in bed basically talking to myself with all this shit running thourgh my head, and i thought that maybe if i just write some of this down and get it out of me, then maybe just maybe i can stop crying...and if i can stop crying if the tears will stop falling for just a...
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sad once again!!!! Oh wait how is that different from every other fucken second of my never ending days!!!!!
I think i was happier earlier today, or at least distracted for a short while. Hanging out with my sister usually does that for me. But now im home again in this god forsaken town, with these fucked up people all around me... I could just...
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Reba: Her
I've known about you
For a while now
When he leaves me
He wears a smile now
As soon as he's away from me
In your arms is where he wants to be

Linda: Me
But you're the one he rushes home to
You're the one he gave his name to
I never see his face
In the early morning light
You have...
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So it is saturaday... I just woke up whcih is very sad considering it is 1:37 in the afternoon. It must have been those sleeping pills i took.

So today will probably be another day of nothingness, maybe i can go for a nice drive or go sit on the beach tonight under the stars...Sometimes i wonder if im the only person who ever feels...
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I am sad again tonight. Lonely as always. "It's really hard living when your living with yourself." Ah how singers and songwriters can always have the exact right lyrics to make you feel like they are singing about you...

Got to see him today...should be happy yet im not. I Think for the breif time he was here i was content but he always leaves...so...
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Got to see 3 doors down tonight, well actually i never made it in time to see the show but haning out back stage was good too. I AM SO IN LOVE WITH THE SINGERS PANTS!!! Well its sleepy time. Later
~lexie~

bored again. I have no life. perhaps i should get one, but then i guess i would have to go out in public and that just sounds like way to much to ask...

Sometimes i just sit and wonder why the hell i even bother with anything anymore. i dont know. later i guess, back to my nothingness.

It's raining. I love the rain it makes me sleepy!
So i got suspended from work for the week, that sucks but I'm sure i deserve it, plus thats a hell of a lot better than being fired. But now i have nothing to do for the week.
Hopefully thursday Ronni will get us tickets to the 3 doors down show. Later.
~LEXIE~

so tonight i am wicked sad!!!! I wish he could just make up his fucking mind... or at least spend a little more damn time with me....ahhhh i hate men!!!
Good night!