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Saturday Jan 22, 2005

Jan 22, 2005
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it hurts....god, it hurts so bad. i don't even think i can describe such a feeling of despair and pain.

i was just watching Rocky 3 and it was the part where Mickey dies and the way that rocky was crying and he wrapped his arms around him that one last time. Lucky bastard.

It's so painful to be washed away, drowning in these horrible memories of my childhood. IT FUCKING SHOULD'VE BEEN ME WHO DIED!!!! god it hurts so bad...

he was my best friend and you fucking took him from me!!! WHY?! he was all i had and i loved him so much. God, the tears won't stop coming...

Why would you take him from me? i was only 13. i can't believe i writing this right now. First you rip my sisters life from her months earlier and then you take him. I WAS ONLY 13!!!!!! Mon Dieu, He was my only family that had. My parents were too busy with my sister at the hospital and being smothered with $100,000's in hospital bills. HE was my mother, my father, my sister and brother and now he's gone...

What a horrible death. Why would you let a 13 year old cut his best friends throat open so he could breathe and stop suffocating on his own blood? How fucking cruel can you be?!

Every fucking day i have to relive this pain. Every fucking day i wonder why it was him and not me...it should've been me or the both of us. Oh sweet death, where is your eternal kiss? I long for the moment when you enfold me in your comforting arms of eternal slumber...

oh god it hurts so much...
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lestat90620:
yes...yesit does... mad
Jan 24, 2005
sickgirl22:
i feel horrible that you feel horrible....as i'm sure you understand i don't even know what to say to your entry other than i'm sorry and i really hope in my heart of hearts that you find something or someone to help ease your pain!
i am at an ugly loss for words......not that it means anything in comparison to such a painful situation but i commend you and have great respect for not only opening up but not giving up!! Take Good Care my friend!! Youre in my thoughts!! ooo aaa
Jan 24, 2005

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