lessthanzer0

yesterday i woke up feeling totally depressed and just blah, and though i didn't admit it at the time, it was all over a boi. i'm in some sort of a relationship with a guy who barely has any time between work/school, and than is too exhausted to do anything more than drink beer and sleep the rest of the time. and on top of that i was starting to feel like maybe he didn't even give a shit, and that i should find a new guy.
however, i think i'm starting to freak some because of comments some people have made, and i realized that even though i would kind of like a more serious relationship, at the same time it scares the shit out of me for some reason. wierd comments not directed towards me about how at around 26/27 guys are more focused and are less likely to be playing around (key to that one is he's 27), and more from my roommate - what if you and vespa actually became like a serious couple? and maybe this all wouldn't be freaking me out if i didn't get little hints from him sometimes that he does give a shit about me, and actually does like being around me which wierdly enough i'm not entirely used to. needless to say as i was watching the holiday last night with my roommate and it was nearing the end, and i was getting more and more bitter about my current relationship of sorts (romantic comedies are not a goude idea when you're having relationship issues), he called. and i did something i never do, i left the theater in the middle of the movie and called him back. he was calling to apologize for not calling me sunday when he said he would, and i got incredibly happy, but than at the same time realized i might be in more of a real relationship than i previously thought.
i don't know, i guess i've just never been with a guy who actually cared enough to call about not calling, and made efforts to see me somewhat regularly. i think i just need to stay calm and not fuck this up.