Well, Im getting settled in Charleston, I'm totally depressed because I feel like I've left behind everything important to me. However, I think I've made a friend. I make friends easily atleast.
Right now I feel like I am out of time, that is, I feel like time holds no influence over me. There is nowhere to be, no one to see, no deadlines, no pressures, a certain security I haven't had in a long time of being thoroughly surrounded by my family. I am the perennial caretaker, so I am not very used to being taken care of. For once my personal issues are not so immediate, with the possible exception of the issues with my joints and figuring out how to get health insurance.
Last night my mother brought Grandma over to stay the weekend. The three of us cooked dinner together. Fried green tomatoes, grits and biscuits- if I keep eating like this I'm going to need to do alot of biking to compensate. I can't remember a time when we have all cooked together. Grandma is quite senile now, she doesn't really forget who we are, but we have to watch out because she wanders off. We found her two miles from home one day, walking in the pouring rain to get her hair done. My mother shows the first signs of the dementia which seems to run in the family, and I wonder how long it will be before I am taking care of her instead of the other way around.
lexi
Right now I feel like I am out of time, that is, I feel like time holds no influence over me. There is nowhere to be, no one to see, no deadlines, no pressures, a certain security I haven't had in a long time of being thoroughly surrounded by my family. I am the perennial caretaker, so I am not very used to being taken care of. For once my personal issues are not so immediate, with the possible exception of the issues with my joints and figuring out how to get health insurance.
Last night my mother brought Grandma over to stay the weekend. The three of us cooked dinner together. Fried green tomatoes, grits and biscuits- if I keep eating like this I'm going to need to do alot of biking to compensate. I can't remember a time when we have all cooked together. Grandma is quite senile now, she doesn't really forget who we are, but we have to watch out because she wanders off. We found her two miles from home one day, walking in the pouring rain to get her hair done. My mother shows the first signs of the dementia which seems to run in the family, and I wonder how long it will be before I am taking care of her instead of the other way around.
lexi
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mistersatan:
Thanks for listening- I'm sorry to hear things haven't been that much better for you. Catch me on AIM sometime, we'll talk, have coffee, y'know, no big whoop. 
mistersatan:
Just wanted to say thank you again, for the lovely conversation- it really helped me out. I will call you, most likely tomorrow. Until then, thank you again- you're a sweet girl. *hugs*