le

i feel terrible. i don't know how to live my life without sharing all the triumphs and little wonderful things about every day with someone.. the morning coffee, the snuggles, the kvetching about school or work, cooing over the cat, making plans for the next fun thing. i don't understand how it happened or what is wrong with me, but i'm alone again, it seems. i'm so sad and defeated. i thought all the beauty could sustain us. but i've been let down.. disappointed to the core. i don't really know how i'm going to move on. i'm scared. can someone hold my hand for a while? i talk a big game but i need so much help. doesn't everyone?