The storms that have gently rocked this little Isle subsided today and it was a typical sunny clear and fresh day. Just went out for a walk, the moon bright, with the boom,fizz and whoosh of fireworks occasioanlly startling me.
Walking is good physcially, the only exercise I get apart from sex I think, and mentally. Its always a good time to reflect on situations and for some reason I started thinking about my life 3 years ago...
..the wilderness years...
*living with a close but troubled friend
*living on a council estate and regularly finding my car vandalised or broken
*having to walk 45 minutes to work in energy-sapping sunshine or snow
*hating the way I looked. Having a shaved head, being 2 stone overweight, never talking to girls cos I assumed they would be disgusted with me. Refusing to look at photos of myself and starting the year just having one resolution- to lose weight.
*socialising with the people at work, an ok bunch but one I had no real connection with and feeling increasingly isolated.
God, it makes me kind of shiver looking back on it all. I guess I needed to hit some low times to get me to the person I am now though
***
Let me see all my old friends
Let me put my arms around them
Cos I really do love them
Now does that sound mad?
Yes its true, after an age, I am going out tomorrow for my friend's birthday and seeing all my good friends. I havent been out for ages (lack of money) but tomorrow will be good..
Walking is good physcially, the only exercise I get apart from sex I think, and mentally. Its always a good time to reflect on situations and for some reason I started thinking about my life 3 years ago...
..the wilderness years...
*living with a close but troubled friend
*living on a council estate and regularly finding my car vandalised or broken
*having to walk 45 minutes to work in energy-sapping sunshine or snow
*hating the way I looked. Having a shaved head, being 2 stone overweight, never talking to girls cos I assumed they would be disgusted with me. Refusing to look at photos of myself and starting the year just having one resolution- to lose weight.
*socialising with the people at work, an ok bunch but one I had no real connection with and feeling increasingly isolated.
God, it makes me kind of shiver looking back on it all. I guess I needed to hit some low times to get me to the person I am now though
***
Let me see all my old friends
Let me put my arms around them
Cos I really do love them
Now does that sound mad?
Yes its true, after an age, I am going out tomorrow for my friend's birthday and seeing all my good friends. I havent been out for ages (lack of money) but tomorrow will be good..
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annamei:
hope you had fun at your friend's b-day party. seeing people you haven't seen in a while is great. i have a friend that no matter how much time passes between seeing her its like no time has passed at all
reacher:
Nice journal bro, a bit of a departure from your usual. I love taking nighttime walks as well. For some reason I can't imagine you as fat. I agree that these things are sometimes necessary. As I've often said, ``when a man is lost, sometimes things must get worse before they can get better''. In many ways, I think I'm living in the ``wilderness years'' so to speak myself currently, but this will change in time. These things always do. Have a good time with your mates.