ldwarren

"Serenade my love
Is all I can do
And I know yes, I know it's wrong to be so
Vigilant and so far gone
It goes on and on and on "

No I'm not in love but I met someone who made me flutter a little. Im not sure what she is thinking, she is so fucking nice and polite it's impossible to read but I always seem to impress the ones i dont care for and the ones I want remain out of reach. Same old story for a lot of us im sure. My friend mentioned the fact that most relationships have a lover and the beloved and that's vaguely depressing. When it seems equal its a magical thing.

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"And when they come to swallow you
I'll be the water to wash you through"

Friendship/love is purity. Everytime I email you I cry at the end as you make me feel innocent. Wanting is usually a selfish concept but my only want is seeing you happy.

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"don't waste no time the streets are on fire
hold out your arms , yes, it's called desire
getting quite sleepy but you held the door
the light from your eyes asks me for more"

I'm becoming sluttier. Part of me still feels I havent achieved all the sexual things I want to, the other half feels rather sickened at my animal instincts. Like I said in my previous journal - libido and conscience.

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Lyrics by the lovely:


Confused ramblings by my goodself.