lazarusisdead

Glad to see you're back! We missed ya!

Around the age of 14 I 'converted' from catholocism to paganism, and haven't looked back since. I was Roman Catholic as well, even attended Catholic school from grades K-13 with the naughty uniform and nazi nuns and teachers blocking the school exits and locking classrooms and bathrooms on Mass days, preventing unwilling students from attending. Huge paintings and prints of the Pope filled the hallways, and the teachers would remind us that 'he' was always watching us all. I can remember, even until about the age of 18, feeling guilty and thinking lightening would strike if I say Goddamnit or Jesus Christ as a cuss. I look back now and cringe at how we were all raised to think and believe in 'our' religion. Go to confession and even if it's murder, say twenty hail mary's and you're forgiven. Our campus minister in highschool would even ask people coming in to give talks about safe sex to leave. Yet, if you were raped or abused as a child, you were not in any way a virgin and were condemned a sinner and were therefore dirty and unworthy. Yeah, that one lived with me until about the age of 21....

We were the only highschool and ELEMENTARY schools in town with a daycare- for the students children. God forbid there be condoms in the bathrooms or at the nurses office to teach responsibility and safety from disease. Because, you know, as 'Pope John Paul would say..." How many times did I hear that? Perhaps the most terrifying was the incident when I was 5 our church's priest 'disowned' a woman in the congregation and disallowed her back in the church because she had decided to terminate a life threatening pregnancy. Didn't matter that she had a husband and four other children at home..... the Vatican didn't allow for that at the time. I haven't followed for so many years I don't even know if they do now. My grade 1 teacher was removed from our school when I was 7 because she got a divorce...from a husband who used to beat the hell out of her and send her to work with bruises. Gods....I could go on forever.

The thought of the Pope dying has set a strange fear in me for a long time though. I don't think he was progressive at all, but at least to a large degree he was predictable. What about now? What will they put in his place now? Will there be room for change or is the Roman Catholic church so set on its ass that there is no hope. I think it would be good for the church to change a lot of things, and they'd get a hell of a lot more priests if they were allowed to marry. I don't now. I felt sorr for the man in a way, but there's not really a thing I agreed with him on aside from the general notion of love for mankind. The wars that have happened and the deaths involved because of the church would tend to disagree with that however.... anyway, I've babbled incessantly. In short, I agree!

OH! Dude, seriously....stop watching CNN!!! this world and th press have become so mamby pamby, I'm so not surprised that they are talking of making him a Saint already.

Hey Homie!! How ya been?? Just wanted to say hello now that I'm back from the grey.

Winter in WInnipeg....gahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! You poor poor soul. I pray that winter comes soon. Or we may all just snap.

yeah, I was pretty cranky...... ah well. Nothing to do about it now. Maybe the judges won't notice. ya right. ptooie.

awww....hope yer feeling better soon buds! Colds suck. I am so sick of snow I could like.....I dunno, but it would be very bad! Snow needs to just go the hell away! grrrrr......spring please come, oh please oh please......

And yeah, I had some chocolate earlier tonight. hmmmmm.....yummmy.....

seems to be a flu going around. take care of yourself.
no great frames so far. we didn't get to finish putting them out. it was so busy. if there's anything that looks good i'll let you know. what are you looking for?
i loved your story about the 'bowling ally ghost'. thats so funny.

i was actually thinking i'd like it to be dark brown or black, with blue at the ends. but i don't know if i could do that evenly at home. i might have to go to a hair salon. i ran it by my manager at work, and she was okay with that, but i don't know how she'd feel if i had an entire head of blue hair.

[Edited on Mar 08, 2005 11:03AM]

tee hee.....I majored in music and was a french horn player. Oddly enough, it was the trumpet players who had their lips stuck......

and a chocoholic man?!?!? bestill my canadian heart! <g> I wish i kept a stash like that, though, I do try sometimes, but it's never really, uh, stashed very long. <g>

oh no, that reminds me of a song that is now stuck in my head, combining with a Bring it On song. WAH!

Sunshine....I love the sunshine. I can't wait until all of this ass snow is gone and we have the sunshine.....

Ah, you and yer mom are in my thoughts. I don't know sometimes what happens as we grow older. Harry Chapin's 'Cats in the Cradle' is too, too true. I suppose we do all have our own lives, and it unfortunately gets in the 'way' of those we love and care about. My dad and I used to be really really close. Like, talked several times a day close, and saw each other for coffee every day. But then, well, he got remarried, and I'm very happy for him now because he's finally happy. He so deserved to be happy. Sometimes when I remember how close we used to be though it makes me sad, because we were all each of us had for a long time. I guess I just miss hanging out with him. I was totally a tom boy when I was young, used to follow him around the farm for hours. I learned a lot though, and I'm thankful for the time we had. I just miss him. When we're young we never appreciate our parents enough.

Havarti