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Well, the cooking of nachos and watching Saw 4 didn't happen today after all. Things got pretty heated with my ex so I had to cancel on her. Didn't fancy seeing anyone and I still don't. To be honest, what I really want is for all the crap in my life to stop. I just wanna run away. Memories from my past haunt me everyday...
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Last week was a busy week. Working everyday, going out everynight...I really need to get some rest soon.

I'm in a bit of a weird situation with someone at the mo. I dunno how I manage to get myself in these situations, but yeah.. I do. I'm not sure how i feel about it all at the moment - I have to make sure I...
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Whenever I see this ad:



I get well jealous! That would probably be one of the coolest things ever to! I just watched the making of it as well (yes I'm a geek) and they actually filmed it! I was under the impression that it was all computerised and shit.


Who else is REALLY stupidly exciting about seeing Saw 5?! Man, I can't wait! So...
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I really needed to update this blog. That last one was far too depressing and had to go! People judge you on first impressions and I don't want people thinking I'm a depressed, suicidal, lovesick maniac.

Apart from the agonising cough I have right now, I'm feeling much better - about everything. Obviously I don't know how long it will last and I'm sure there...
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My friends can only make me happy for the few moments I'm with them. And it's normally only masked happiness fuelled by kind words, alcohol and drugs. Afterwards it disapears. I think I've pretty much cried for 20 hours solid today. I just want this pain to stop. I don't want to see anyone but him. I just want all this to stop. I'm tired...
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I'm ill in bed with the worst cold. My head feels like it ways a tonn, I can't breathe from my nose and I have the most painful cough I rang in sick this morning but I don't think work believe me cos they know my mate came home from Leeds yesterday - they obviously just think I'm hungover. I was only drinking Vodka and...
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Thanks for all your kind words on my last blog. I've calmed down now. Have got a lot of thinking to do.



Spoke to my mate yesterday when I was feeling pretty shitty. He recently moved to Leeds for Uni so I haven't seen him in... wow, like only 3 weeks ago - seemed like much longer. Anyways, he texted me today and he's coming...
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It's been a pretty shit week to say the least. Matt still doesn't want to speak to me. I'm suh a mug though - always put up with his shit and always take him back. We should have split up months ago, but I always live in the hope that he will change - or at least grow a heart. Never in my life have...
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Things have gone shit with my insensitive boyfriend. I don't ask for fucking much.

Found out this morning that a friend of mine died yesterday whilst shopping in Morrisons. She fainted - then died. Just like that. No illness, no warning signs, just gone. She was only 29 - a single mum to a 7 year old boy. I've cried a fair bit this morning, for many reasons. I was shocked at first, didn't really know how to take...
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First day back went Ok. I ended up finishing at 6 instead of 9 which was pretty sweet. Felt like so much had changed when I went back in this morning. All the managers were in and the general vibe was just abit odd - always is when they're all in together. Apparently shit hit the fan all over the place while I was away...
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Why do I have to have so much problems with sleep?! Such a battle. I have to be up again at 7o'clock. Too late now to take a pill as I'll sleep through my alarms in the morning. Just had a smoke so hopefully that will help.

Back to work tomorrow. And day 1 of the Detox.