lanapants

Lets see...

1. Lady days are upon me... I hate bleeding!!!!
:::::::::::::ANGRY::::::::::

2. Missed the Hello Kitty book signing
::::::::::::::::<DEVASTATED>:::::::::::::::Sad::::::::::

3. Mom calls that night and says... "What are you doing right now?" to which i respond "what is wrong? What is going on?" ...... <MOM> " I have been trying to get in touch with your father for hours and when I was calling him me must have leaned on his phone in the bar and I heard him talking to a woman..."

I can not for the life of me understand how a person could forsake his family and be so selfish! It BREAKS MY FUCKING HEART!!! I am in a dangerous world and I am trying to stay sane... it is hard... crying in a normal part of every day now... i can not shake the chill in my bones telling me <HE DOES NOT CARE> ... I begged him and pleeded with him...
::::::::::::::::::::I DO NOT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT ANY MORE ::::::::::::::::::

4. My sister postponed her wedding because she had to give all her money to my mom so she could keep the house :::::::::::::::sad::::::::::::::

5. My cousin Eddie got shipped out to Afghanistan... MARINES
:::::::::::::::::sad::::::::::::::proud::::::::::::going to miss him::::::::::::::::::

6. Fell asleep driving on my street ... hit a trash can... ripped off my mirror... what a fucking idiot!!!!
::::::::::::stupid::::::::::sad:::::::::::tired::::::::::::::

7. My car is having trouble starting...GREAT! I definitely needed that cherry on top!!!!
::::::::::::frustrated:::::::::::::::

8. OH WAIT ONE MORE... I realized that I am not emotionally stable enough to go through all of this on my own... SOOOOOOOOOO THERAPY HERE I COME.... bring on the mood stabilizers!!
::::::::::::::::weak:::::::::::::::

Well i am going to cry in the corner now!!