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Friday Jul 06, 2007

Jul 6, 2007
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Whoa! Hey! OK! Go!

An update? I suppose so. It's been a little while, so why not, eh?

It's been a good few weeks. Mostly good. I've been busy working, being a good boyfriend, being a bad boyfriend, and being generally lazy with the one that I love, all the while baking delicious dinners and deserts.

We've had our internet and cable for a little while now, and thankfully, we're not becoming full-fledged couch potatoes. We do spend some nights in front of the tube, but at least our hours aren't spent watching reruns of Viva La Bam or The Surreal Life. We watch a lot of Food Network, Discovery Channel, blips of softcore porn on Cinemax, and plenty plenty PLENTY of Ninja Warrior. It's tremendous.

We even (well, she) used our (well, her) newfound knowledge to cook up some fried plantains. Pretty delicious stuff.

Tonight I'm baking some calzones. Hopefully they turn out well. My last couple of pizzas were, apparently, quite tasty.

We have an idea of creating a bakery together. Sort of like a catering-bakery thing, making things to order mostly, I suppose. We're getting very into trying new things (we even bought an ice cream maker!) lately, and I think we have enough awesomeness to get it going and run it well. Plus, I really want to get out of my dreadful retail slave job and do something that I'm actually interested in. Whether it be audio/video production or baking, I don't really care right now. I just want to do something that I don't hate doing every day. Something that makes me happy. And, you know, running a business is pretty excellent in itself because you can take a vacation whenever you want. I want all of these things.

I'm just feeling so stagnant in this town. I graduated with a degree in Audio-Radio and Digital Media Production last December. I've won a bunch of awards and accolades for work that I've done with audio, video, and Flash. I've got my radio broadcasting certification. I can really do anything I want in my field - I've gathered enough knowledge of all aspects of digital media (be it audio, radio, video, or animation) to land any kind of design job. But can I? No. There's nothing in this town to allow me to do that, and everything I applied for when I was trying ot move out of here a few months ago came up short.

I just feel... sort of useless? I have all of this knowledge and nothing to do with it. I have six episodes of a TV drama written that I want to produce. I have eight or ten episodes of a TV sitcom drawn up with a friend of mine. I have the urge to write all of the time. I keep telling myself that I just want to come home and write all night long. Just write for hours. But about what? I have no idea what to write about... I just want to write. I want to create. I want to do something new and exciting with audio and video and everything.

But this town, it just fucking sucks everything out of you. At least when I was in school I HAD to create things. I was in courses where my job was to knock out three or four productions a semester. Now... it just all falls apart. It's like nobody wants to be a part of something unless it's FOR something. If it's for a class, sure, people will tag along to help. If it's for.... the sake of creating something great? People are busy. People are working. People aren't around.

People. Aren't. Motivated.

Fuck. What a bunch of whining. I'm just so frustrated. So much pent up creativity in my head that I can't use anywhere.

Anyone here need something produced? Anything? I want to work. I want to make something that makes people laugh. Think. Cry.

I want to make something beautiful and wonderful.

Speaking of beautiful and wonderful, Knitzy's boss is a complete fucking douchebag. So let's cheer her up with billions of dollars of things from her wishlist. And then, let's all get together to draw and quarter the stupid bastard.

I started bitching and whining and totally forgot the entire point of this post. On Tuesday I went up to Montreal with Knitzy for her second shoot. It looks so good! She's a killer, baby. It was a real fun day, too. Just spending the day walking around and checking out the city. We weren't there for too long, but long enough to want to go back again soon for a longer stay.

This week we spent some time away from everything at her family's camp. Just a few days, but man, it was so great. Just being away from TV and work and... I don't know, any responsibility? The only thing we had to do all day was hang out and have fun. It was pretty relaxing, and I got to meet more of her family, which is very cool. They're all such friendly, warm, awesome people. I think they might even like me, too, which is a major plus.

All in all, a pretty good week capped off by coming back here to work. I've been sore all day, probably from sitting in the car for hours and hours today. My ass is in pain... and I think I've got some sort of allergy/sickness thing happening which is not favorable in the least. It'll pass, though, as all things have a tendency to do.

I guess that's about it for now.
knitzy:
you're the best, dear. don't worry, you won't have a dead-end retail job forever. we'll renovate a bus and drive cross-country, peddling our baked goods and tattoos wherever we go. our life will be exciting and wonderful soon. speaking of buses, get on top of that shit! i want my bus soon.
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Jul 6, 2007

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