Another night, another WUOG cd playing, another 5 or 10 pages and 14 more hours to go.
Things I learned tonight:
* It pays to start writing before drinking coffee, limits my natural tendency towards caffeine-induced ADD
* With every paper I write there comes a moment of true despair. Don't do anything drastic, pray that it passes quickly, and keep on truckin'
* During last moment scrambles like the one I'm now experiencing, screwing around on the internet or finishing Animal Farm, or whatever doesn't necessarily hurt as long as I put something of a time cap on it. Talking to people, going out in public, etc. can, does really mess with me, even in small doses.
* Campus computer labs are good for free printing and lack of distractions, bad for not being able to log into SG
Things I learned tonight:
* It pays to start writing before drinking coffee, limits my natural tendency towards caffeine-induced ADD
* With every paper I write there comes a moment of true despair. Don't do anything drastic, pray that it passes quickly, and keep on truckin'
* During last moment scrambles like the one I'm now experiencing, screwing around on the internet or finishing Animal Farm, or whatever doesn't necessarily hurt as long as I put something of a time cap on it. Talking to people, going out in public, etc. can, does really mess with me, even in small doses.
* Campus computer labs are good for free printing and lack of distractions, bad for not being able to log into SG
I was refering to waking up from the eternal dream, being lucid, enlightened, etc, not really just "waking up". Sorry, I didn't make myself more clear. I use cold water at the end of a shower to physically wake up, too. I want to put an end to my conscious slumber, however.
I just came out of a four year relationship a few months ago. I started to make really positve changes in my life. They felt real and permenant. Then about a month ago, it started to slow down, then come to a nearly complete stop. I realized I was making the changes out of fear, not because it was the right thing to do. That said, the changes were positive, the effects clear enough, I should have continued for that reason alone, but for whatever reason I find myself in a complete stall.
I am adjusting, slowly moving working at the core of my being to affect the change o this time it sticks for good.
being a capricorn has been interesting, to say the least. yeah, the big chunks of dirge do seem to last for long periods of time.
On first glance, you look just like a friend of mine that died last year. I was momentarily freaked out (two seconds anyway).
What are you studying?
[Edited on Dec 10, 2005 4:55PM]