lambda:
sky's always blue here
Looking around in here, which has become something like a little fishbowl that I swim around in, it seems like there's been a great flood of updating, a kind of slowly spreading mania full of dreams and images and stress and revelation.
When I can watch ten or twelve people each doing their own individual thing, reading journal entries and posts for example, I feel...
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When I can watch ten or twelve people each doing their own individual thing, reading journal entries and posts for example, I feel...
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rigormortis:
i did not understand a fucking word you said. maybe it's just me. or maybe it's YOU.
lambda:
What's the "chapel perilous" thing? I took a look around and didn't find any readily consumable explanation.
YEAH, it's definitely me. I think it runs in my family.
YEAH, it's definitely me. I think it runs in my family.
Another night, another WUOG cd playing, another 5 or 10 pages and 14 more hours to go.
Things I learned tonight:
* It pays to start writing before drinking coffee, limits my natural tendency towards caffeine-induced ADD
* With every paper I write there comes a moment of true despair. Don't do anything drastic, pray that it passes quickly, and keep on truckin'
* During...
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Things I learned tonight:
* It pays to start writing before drinking coffee, limits my natural tendency towards caffeine-induced ADD
* With every paper I write there comes a moment of true despair. Don't do anything drastic, pray that it passes quickly, and keep on truckin'
* During...
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zef:
Thanks for you input. I don't know that I agree with all of your assessments, most of them were right on, but it was interesting to get an alternative perspective.
I was refering to waking up from the eternal dream, being lucid, enlightened, etc, not really just "waking up". Sorry, I didn't make myself more clear. I use cold water at the end of a shower to physically wake up, too. I want to put an end to my conscious slumber, however.
I just came out of a four year relationship a few months ago. I started to make really positve changes in my life. They felt real and permenant. Then about a month ago, it started to slow down, then come to a nearly complete stop. I realized I was making the changes out of fear, not because it was the right thing to do. That said, the changes were positive, the effects clear enough, I should have continued for that reason alone, but for whatever reason I find myself in a complete stall.
I am adjusting, slowly moving working at the core of my being to affect the change o this time it sticks for good.
being a capricorn has been interesting, to say the least. yeah, the big chunks of dirge do seem to last for long periods of time.
On first glance, you look just like a friend of mine that died last year. I was momentarily freaked out (two seconds anyway).
What are you studying?
[Edited on Dec 10, 2005 4:55PM]
I was refering to waking up from the eternal dream, being lucid, enlightened, etc, not really just "waking up". Sorry, I didn't make myself more clear. I use cold water at the end of a shower to physically wake up, too. I want to put an end to my conscious slumber, however.
I just came out of a four year relationship a few months ago. I started to make really positve changes in my life. They felt real and permenant. Then about a month ago, it started to slow down, then come to a nearly complete stop. I realized I was making the changes out of fear, not because it was the right thing to do. That said, the changes were positive, the effects clear enough, I should have continued for that reason alone, but for whatever reason I find myself in a complete stall.
I am adjusting, slowly moving working at the core of my being to affect the change o this time it sticks for good.
being a capricorn has been interesting, to say the least. yeah, the big chunks of dirge do seem to last for long periods of time.
On first glance, you look just like a friend of mine that died last year. I was momentarily freaked out (two seconds anyway).
What are you studying?
[Edited on Dec 10, 2005 4:55PM]
My thermostat is set to 56 deg F. I'm running out of WUOG 90.5 cds (which is to say I've listened to them all too much). No good. This must change.
Three cheers for blowing off school...
Temperature is plummeting outside. The sky is blindingly clear tonight. I just rode home on my bike and my fingertips are still a little numb.
The cat died this weekend at age 15 after pissing uncontrollably (and sometimes unnoticably) here and there. Organ failure, cancer? Days later I still see little bits of movement out of the corner of...
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Temperature is plummeting outside. The sky is blindingly clear tonight. I just rode home on my bike and my fingertips are still a little numb.
The cat died this weekend at age 15 after pissing uncontrollably (and sometimes unnoticably) here and there. Organ failure, cancer? Days later I still see little bits of movement out of the corner of...
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My illustrious roommate rob is in mexico for the holidays, so I've been taking up lots of space here at the house, staying up late playing loud music, trying to keep things clean for his imminent return.
Went downtown to the dog-friendly bar with a friend for some good saturday night people watching. Very much struck by the basic boy-girl asymmetry... the girls get more...
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Went downtown to the dog-friendly bar with a friend for some good saturday night people watching. Very much struck by the basic boy-girl asymmetry... the girls get more...
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I can't recommend Genie's Gonzo Americana Blog highly enough. Nice photoshoot of the New Orleans reconstruction.
I walked through downtown ABQ at bar-close time tonight. Not sure why, but it's a little like going to dinner and a movie - at the end, I feel like I've really *been out*.
Weird moment of the night - I'm sitting on a concrete block in a parking...
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I walked through downtown ABQ at bar-close time tonight. Not sure why, but it's a little like going to dinner and a movie - at the end, I feel like I've really *been out*.
Weird moment of the night - I'm sitting on a concrete block in a parking...
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Went to see Frankenstein in Love tonight at the Vortex here in ABQ. It's a Clive Barker play, and holy shit. It's thick and weird, almost like hamlet, where you think you know what's going on, or at least why you care, and then it's all back up in the air again.
I brought in some pbrs with me and spiked them with kava extract....
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I brought in some pbrs with me and spiked them with kava extract....
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Feeling better tonight. Walked to class and had dinner with friends. It's time for me to lay off the whiskey and do some homework and laundry.
I took a nice slow bath at dawn yesterday morning, shot some digital pics. I'll post them if any come out nicely.
I took a nice slow bath at dawn yesterday morning, shot some digital pics. I'll post them if any come out nicely.
lambda:
Went to see Frankenstein in Love tonight at the Vortex here in ABQ. It's a Clive Barker play, and holy shit. It's thick and weird, almost like hamlet, where you think you know what's going on, or at least why you care, and then it's all back up in the air again.
I brought in some pbrs with me and spiked them with kava extract. By the end of the show , something like 3 hours later, I'm just about floating.
Using roommate's computer this week, has win98, which doesn't like my camera. "tough shit", say the tech gods. they do that alot, it seems.
I brought in some pbrs with me and spiked them with kava extract. By the end of the show , something like 3 hours later, I'm just about floating.
Using roommate's computer this week, has win98, which doesn't like my camera. "tough shit", say the tech gods. they do that alot, it seems.
I spread green clay on my face for the night's festivities. It's dried and cracking as the sun rises on halloween; NPR gives a bleak report. The cat's pissed off, time's changed, I've laid off the beer and bed awaits. Tonight reading? William Gibson's 'Mona Lisa Overdrive'