Thursday Oct 21, 2004

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"here i am waving a red cape/ locking eyes with a bull"
"and ive been frantically piling up sandbags/ aginst the floodwaters of insecurity" -ani difranco
lordy. i dont think i am ready for this. for anthing. for life.
i feel like i am drowning.. i am scared the the flood will pull me away.
cakemix:
aw...its too bad but better to get out early on!

Thursday Oct 21, 2004

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"here i am waving a red cape/ locking eyes with a bull"
"and ive been frantically piling up sandbags/ aginst the floodwaters of insecurity" -ani difranco
lordy. i dont think i am ready for this. for anthing. for life.
i feel like i am drowning.. i am scared the the flood will pull me away.
kris7:
What's wrong? frown

Tuesday Oct 19, 2004

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woah, so last night i had like a moment with the new boy. he made me come so hard that i cried. it was so strange. i was just so completely overwhelmed and he was so rad. he went and washed up and then came back and cuddled me for a long ass time,. he is such a gentleman. so sweet and kind. and a...
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buckknuckle:
I sometimes cry after I come, but I'm sure it's for a different reason. Hm.

ha!
kris7:
Wow, just wow.

Your entry reminded me of that Rollins bit on Live And Ripped In London where he talks about how men get uptight when women cry and everything goes haywire.

wink biggrin

Wednesday Oct 13, 2004

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*sigh*
so here is the trouble. i feel crazy. very very very crazy. like freak out, melt down, lay down and sob for hours crazy.
however, i have become so tightly compressed in the past year or so, so totally sure that no one gives a bloody shit about any of my troubles, that all of what i feel is sort of crammed down into...
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rumrunner:
"A PESSIMIST SEES THE DIFFICULTY IN EVERY OPPORTUNITY;AN OPTIMIST SEES THE OPPORTUNITY IN EVERY DIFFICULTY"
-Sir Winston Churchill
fdnymedic:
i hope you feel better soon girl!
nice new profile pic.
kiss

Wednesday Oct 13, 2004

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hmmm. what now?
i think what you do now is sit and wait for something to happen.
i hate waiting.
manchester_black:
Yeah, I can't say patience is one of my virtues neither

Monday Oct 11, 2004

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make me stay

i'm gonna turn
and walk away
you can wait
till i am far along
then run and come
and catch my arm
and say you'd die
if i were gone
i want to hear you
call my name
it's too easy
just to say it soft
i don't like my language
watered down
i don't like my edges
rounded off

i can't...
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wes11b10:
Sir, the Private believes that every answer he gives will be wrong, and the Senior Drill Instructor will only beat him harder if he reverses himself, Sir!
buckknuckle:
nice. it makes me depressed, but then... what doesn't these days?

Friday Oct 08, 2004

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he just left and i feel tense and apprehensive. i didnt say no last night. im not sure how i feel about that. the thought that i had as i was waking up was, 'hell, another stranger in my bed. didnt i say i wasn't going to do this anymore?' well. he's not really a stranger, but... he still kind of is. i like him,...
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magnadolce:
Nope. Can't say I've ever been to Portland. I'd like to though.
It's crazy how many people tell me I look like someone they know or see. Without exaggeration, someone tells me that at LEAST 4-5 times a month. I meet a lot of people out at shows and sure enough, someone always says "you look familiar..."

If I ever find myself in Portland, I'll go to your work and scope out for this guy... wink

Tuesday Oct 05, 2004

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the new one makes me all wiggley inside... love biggrin blush
buckknuckle:
So. If you pimp ME out, that means you are setting up my dates, right? Yeah, I could use some sex, but since I only get hit on by scary middle aged "bear" type homosexuals, in what way does me being a ho for you make you deserve free tattoos?! I know it's a Pimps Up/Ho's Down kinda world, but really.... Besides, I totally give you deals because you have a nice booty. Ha!

love,
Adam
buckknuckle:
Dude, who doesn't want free tattoos?

....you know, fresh baked bread products are THE way to free tattoos. ahhaha!

adam

Monday Oct 04, 2004

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there was this girl. she met a guy. she thought he was neat and he didnt reciprocate. this happened time and time again to our heroine. time after time she learned to ignore her impulses in favor of not getting hurt. until she was so tightly wound she thought she would explode. it was then that she started acting out. that didnt get her what...
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laine666:
post script.
people feel fake to me all the time. i wanted to tell him that i could never believe anything he told me. that trust will only come with much effort and time. lots of time. i wanted him to hold me all night. i wanted him in my bed. i am confused. i feel lonlier than ever today. lonely and isolated. any attempt to get close usually results in this polar reaction. i cant trust that he means what he says. i dont really think most people mean what they say. positive things anyway. i usually figure they tell me what they think i want to hear in order to get a desired reaction out of me. isnt that fucked up?
yes. back into therapy she goes...
wes11b10:
I am only nice to you so I can get free baked goods. I am an opportunistic user. I send you my words so you will react and I will read your reactions, with a malevolant grin on my face, hee-he-he-he-he! Got her!!!

Yeah.

I can't speak for your faceless, souless crowd of Most People but I wouldn't bother reading your work if I didn't think there was more to you than a pretty face and a cool record collection. Divorce me from them - I am Wes, I like you because I like you.
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