I am abysmally depressed.
I am broke. Alone. My medication isnt working.
I hate my life. And I am having these strange mood swings.
Fine one minute then my whole world is falling down around me.
Maybe it is always falling and I just manage the blinders better sometimes. I really dont know.
i some times feel narcissistic about typing these things here, like wondering if anyone could really give two shits about my sad little problems. 'she's depressed again'
yes she is. maybe she is never not just sometimes a little more upbeat about the future, while blissfully ignoring her surroundings. i dunno.
i just get so angry at myself for being so emo, and not being able to change the way i think about things.
i just want any of the things i am doing to work. any of them, all of them.
i am so sick of this.
I am broke. Alone. My medication isnt working.
I hate my life. And I am having these strange mood swings.
Fine one minute then my whole world is falling down around me.
Maybe it is always falling and I just manage the blinders better sometimes. I really dont know.
i some times feel narcissistic about typing these things here, like wondering if anyone could really give two shits about my sad little problems. 'she's depressed again'
yes she is. maybe she is never not just sometimes a little more upbeat about the future, while blissfully ignoring her surroundings. i dunno.
i just get so angry at myself for being so emo, and not being able to change the way i think about things.
i just want any of the things i am doing to work. any of them, all of them.
i am so sick of this.
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Sorry you are not feeling well, wish I could cheer you up. I know I say it and then don't come hang out with you when you invite me, but we should get together and do some crimes sometime. I'll try to be a little more with it.