ladybelmont

For some reason I really got into the spirit this year. Which is wierd for me cuz of my childhood upbringing. (Fuck up family life). I think it was because I was able to get my daughter everything she asked Santa for, and more. Thanks to a few secret Santas. Thank you who ever you are!!!!!!!!!
That is until about 10:00 Christmas morning when my daughter had leave with my ex to go down to Medford. That's about the time all my spirit left!
Normally I would be happy for my baby, cuz she doesn't get to see him often enough and it makes her so happy. But this time it hurt so bad I had to bite my lip to keep from crying in front of her. She hasn't seen him in two months and sometimes it seems like it doesn't even phase him. I even paid for the round trip bus tickets to get him to come up here to get her. And I'm going to have to find a way to get down there to pick her up again.
I just keep telling myself that it was her last big Christmas present, otherwise I'd be very pissed at myself right now.

And he better be good to my baby, or I'll fuck'n kill him! I just wish I could be done with him!