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I am still an emotional mess.
I can't figure out what the hell I want.
One day it is one thing and I am fine, the next my heart is broken into a million pieces.
They say that sometimes you make a decision with your indecision.
That just may be me.

Love.
I hate love. Seriously. I swear love has only ever brought me pain.
More pain than joy that is for damn sure.
Every type of love too.

I think I may hibernate in my little den of misery for a bit.
I don't know if I am not ready to leave it yet, I can't leave it yet, or I am afraid to leave it.
But for now, I think will stay huddled here.

If I had the ability to cry I would probably feel much better. Unfortunately Iost that ability around age 12. Instead, I shall eat chocolate or drink some wine.

In other news - I just got a huge increase to my marketing budget. And now I have to figure out the best way to spend it - besides opening a bank account in the islands under my name.

And I do apologize for the negativity of this blog.

And as far as chocolate I cannot suggest strongly enough - Chocomize.com. My first bar was sea salt and bacon, and it was amazing.