I'm up, I'm down, my personality twirls around. I feel strange trying to act normal.
I don't try to be a jerk. Ok, maybe I do. But I don't like being a jerk, Ok, maybe I do like being a jerk. But, I don't like the consequences.
It's a learning process for me. I've been by myself for so long that it doesn't really matter now. Because I tried to be nice for so long and it didn't get me far.
Actually being a jerk at least gets me somewhere. Some people just never will like me no matter what. Most people will never like me.
I can't be trying to please everyone, but I can avoid being a total asshole because everyone is not the same. It just seems that way to me sometimes.
It's unfortunate that people hold on so much to the past. I have the same problem, so I understand. We forget what we want and remember what we want. Why do people remember the things they do?
I just try to look forward and not backwards. I have a lot of things I could hold against the world, like my penis, and I do still hold some grudges, but I try to have a positive attitude and let things go when I can.
But some things build up over years and decades and it is unfair to judge someone based on a chance encounter.
Oh well, I often contradict myself. I want people to forget, but at the same time to know the history. The ENTIRE history, and not just a small part.
That's unreasonable to ask, to assume, or to even accomplish, unless you were God. And does he even exist?
Oh well, I guess I should just try to be better regardless of my past circumstances.
I try to, and look towards the future, and not the past, except to try and learn from my mistakes and not to repeat them.
I don't try to be a jerk. Ok, maybe I do. But I don't like being a jerk, Ok, maybe I do like being a jerk. But, I don't like the consequences.
It's a learning process for me. I've been by myself for so long that it doesn't really matter now. Because I tried to be nice for so long and it didn't get me far.
Actually being a jerk at least gets me somewhere. Some people just never will like me no matter what. Most people will never like me.
I can't be trying to please everyone, but I can avoid being a total asshole because everyone is not the same. It just seems that way to me sometimes.
It's unfortunate that people hold on so much to the past. I have the same problem, so I understand. We forget what we want and remember what we want. Why do people remember the things they do?
I just try to look forward and not backwards. I have a lot of things I could hold against the world, like my penis, and I do still hold some grudges, but I try to have a positive attitude and let things go when I can.
But some things build up over years and decades and it is unfair to judge someone based on a chance encounter.
Oh well, I often contradict myself. I want people to forget, but at the same time to know the history. The ENTIRE history, and not just a small part.
That's unreasonable to ask, to assume, or to even accomplish, unless you were God. And does he even exist?
Oh well, I guess I should just try to be better regardless of my past circumstances.
I try to, and look towards the future, and not the past, except to try and learn from my mistakes and not to repeat them.
