Hey there everyone hope things are good with yous all. Welcome to my first In General blog of 2020. We I just chat to yous all as long time readers will know by now lol.
Before I type this I want to say I'm sorry that I haven't been as active on here and like/comment on sets here. I will catch up with the sets eventually. I probably missed a lot of other blogs, post and all that so I'm sorry if I missed them. It's been a rough few weeks for me as you know. So I was offline most of the time, clearing my head and unwind from the drama.
So as far as my online time. I'll be on here only. Just be chatting away to all in the DMs, replies, etc.
My fan accounts on Twitter & Instagram are deleted now. So I've deleted my OnlyFans, Snapchat, Twitter & Instagram accounts. I don't think I'll be back on them anytime soon. Think been online less will be better for my mental health.
Also thank you all that replied to my blog about the whole situation. I don't deserved it but thank you. Yous are too good to me. I know I pissed a few ppl off and it's deserved. I present my opinion and thoughts the wrong way cause it has been a rough few weeks for me personally & I should handle it better. I'm not ready to chat it out to the ones I fall out with over it since the things they said hurt my feelings and that's why I block them. Tbh I don't want to block ppl, but I'm thinking that for now i'll block til I'm mentally ready to chat it out like normal reasonable people you know. I learn that from my chats with @phianixx who's been awesome towards me. I never wanted this to come to this but it has and I should've handle it better. But we all make mistakes sometimes. That's why I remove myself from social media cause I read a lot on social media does to MH and the advice is always go off it. It does help, my head is a bit unwinded now since I'm less online except for here cause you are been great towards me and I don't want to leave here since I've made a lot of friends on here & I do love supporting the models. I'm still on Patreon backing EliteOnlineMag, @keshia @tink and @tripodski since I am fan of theirs and hopefully mates too. I would do the same for @phianixx @missjcristina @chroi @niallpatterson @rubyalexia etc but they don't have one (I think). Besides I'm happy with that for now since I'm saving up for all the video game pre orders in the coming months. So I need to save up for that and the new consoles for next Xmas. Well it'll be PS5 since I've lost interested in Xbox. I'm not really into it but it could change. My mind is always changing. So I'll be saving up for that, comics, books, Blu Rays and social events. May join a gym eventually too, see what happens.
Basically I'm focused on my MH. I have gotten some helpful advices in my last blog and I am looking into it so cheers @gnomi @eirenne etc.
If yous got any MH issues yourselves peeps, don't be afraid to chat to me in the DMs. Let's help each other out. I want things to get better for all of us.
That's all I want, do be better and do better. As I know it's the same for yous too. I'm only human after all. We all have issues we're dealing with. Least I admit that I'm wrong but I know my intentions are right. Think sticking to just here will be better for me since I can actually chat and say what I'm really feeling. Since I don't think social media is good, especially if you got MH issues. Best to stay away. I think I made the right choice there.
Also I'll be doing more walks, social interactions, get fit again, etc. My mate wants to go to the cinema often and we've been to see two films already this year. I saw The Gentleman (Guy Richie film) and Jumanji The Next Level. Both are great films, I highly recommend those films. So I'll be reviewing films on the film club group soon. Probably be my next one which will be 1917, looking forward to that one. So I'm taking steps, I mean I have been taking steps for a while but i could a few steps back. But that's ok, I learn it's fine to take a few missteps. It shouldn't be perfect cause nothing is and that's ok too. It's all about learning from mistakes at the end of the day. One step at the time and always take your time. Life is not a race. It's like Indiana Jones. His adventures have bumps in his road but at the end of the day, he gets his treasure. It's like video games, it's a challenge but stick with it and you will complete the game. Pretty much that. I know it sounds odd putting it like that but it'll sense once you think about it lol.
So yeah I'm basically soul searching. Does that mean no more of my usual blogs? absolutely not. I'll be doing my FSS blog series again. And I'll be doing a Appreciation Blog soon to someone that has been a true mate to me in this depression period and I can't thank her enough. Also I will do my new Hopeful Highlights blog series soon, I am going to do that. As well as a blog on The Witcher. Since I really want to write that blog for ages since I love The Witcher. Btw watch the TV show on Netflix. It's superb.
So I want to finish this blog off on a happy note since I hate writing about how depressed I am and all that. I have got all of my Calendars at last. I've got about 6 of them in total. So here are my calendar collection for this year...
As you see I got @nolajean @rubyalexia @dannikadaisy @keshia @tink and @nayru calendars. I just got NolaJean's in the door by the time I write this. Btw check out her blog on the Australia fires as she's doing charity stuff for that. Check it out and donate if you can, doesn't have to be much but it's for a good cause. My condolences to all my Aussie mates on here like @evoke @kettle @coolicio @sirenn @mariajupiter @arachnie @anjave @hopeiero etc. I hope it all gets sorted out soon.
So yeah thank you for the calendars ladies and a few notes & nice words. It does mean a lot to me honestly. That's why I love supporting yous models, you support back and your good people so I'm sorry that I've said & done stupid things over the last few weeks. Like I said I will be better cause I'm all about good intentions. Doing my best as you do.
Also last but not least yous all probably don't know this. But I have been writing my blogs on my phone, this is true. That's right all of my blogs have been on my phone. It was a lot of work but I still do it since I do enjoy writing blogs. I may not enjoy the fan accounts besides having good convos with models, photographers and members. But I always enjoy the blogs. So it wasn't a bother. Now it'll be less of a pain now since I now got this bad boy...
A good old laptop. So my blogs will be better than ever before. Quite cool eh. It's an HP Intel Core i3 7th Gen laptop so it'll be awesome from here on out. So that's good news for the blogs, myself and the support to all of yous. So yeah taking steps and working on getting better.
So that's my In General blog done til the next one. Thank you very much for checking it out and reading it. So my next blog will be a new Appreciation Blog. Clue is she's a hopeful. So look out for that. Til that blogs comes out this KungFury saying take care, much love and
@missy @rambo @sean @eirenne @teal @lust
