Hey peeps, hope you are all doing well. Welcome to another edition to my personal blog I call my In General blog. Just me talking about myself, my life and other random things. Basically me just talking in general to mates and you are my mates since everyone on here has been awesome. Especially since my last one was front page so thank you @missy @rambo @sean @teal @eirenne @lust and the other SG staff who selects what’s on front page. I never think these blogs will be on front page but then again I never think that any of my blogs are going to be on front page but there you go lol.
So yeah been happy about my blogs on here. How well they’ve came out and the responses have been incredible. Especially one or two of the SG models have retweeted it on Twitter @missjcristina @nayru and the other glamour modelling fan accounts on there. I’m almost 1k on there so that means a lot since it’s less strict than Instagram so that’s where my biggest follows are. My Instagram is doing well as well. I’m close to 700 followers on there and I’m always getting shared on there by many of the models/photographers there too so again it does a lot to me that many people are following me and appreciate my post. A lot have even said they have discovered new models from my post and that does mean a lot. Cause I actually don’t know how much of an impact my blogs & fan accounts does but I’m quickly realising that it’s making an impact. Any models feel better with me around promoting them and also educate about them cause not many are talking positive things about it except for other models & photographers. It’s from ppl like myself @xheartswornx @ojtheviking @25901jfm @hiptobes @diddy_dave_uk @vic_tso @therustycheez @nickstone and many others that are doing our part to prove that there are easygoing normal dudes out there that actually care about the models and actually talk about them positivity & mean it. I mean every word I say on my blogs & fan accounts. I do chat to them cause I care and want them to do well. Like my continuous post/blogs about @blaizee for example, I wanted her to be pink for ages and now she is. So happy that it’s happened to her since she’s a mate. Just like I was happy for @sammiii @evoke @rubyalexia @tink turning pink and even more happier if they have more SOTDs like @nayru in my recent girloftheday post on my fan accounts since she works her ass off on her sets, content and cosplay. They all do. I always educate as much as I can about how hard working the models are. A lot of them have 2/3 jobs, boyfriend/husbands/girlfriend, kids and so forth. So it isn’t easy. Tbh I get offended when ppl say oh it’s easy for them, I’m like you kidding they have it harder than everybody else. A lot of the sets are from their own pockets btw. In fact there’s two or three SG models that actually do their own photography in their own sets. I covered that in my past Favourite SG Sets blog series before. Think @ofeliah @niffler @raphaelite and that did their own set. So yeah it’s not easy. Especially the cosplay sets cause that’s a lot of work to do especially most design their own costume. That’s even more money to cost for that. So yeah that’s why supporting them is important and I was doing it cause they were getting barely any appreciation. Now it’s more than that from convos, reading their blogs, etc. I realise that my work on my blogs, fan accounts, buying content is actually becoming more than just simply supporting them. I’m doing my part to helping them. I’ve helped improved things for them. I’ve added cash to their holiday fund, that gig they want to see, traveling funds to go to disgrace nights out, cash for nights out with their actual mates, helping them to help their kid out and so on. So it’s more than just supporting them now. It’s cause I want to help out since my blogs, fan accounts, connecting with awesome people, etc from my time on here has helped me a lot through my struggles. So in the way it’s helped me too. I’m not the richest but I do my best to treat them stuff of their wishlist. Like I’ve done with @phianixx @syrinn @alexabstract @missjcristina @justkoop and so on. Speaking of @blaizee i think I’ve helped her the most since one of her upcoming sets I’ve actually helped out on. This is no joke I actually did since I went overly generous to her. No doubt I’ll be the same again to any of my model mates. I love to help out. I mean I’m not a personal mate since I never met them face to face. Just from on here & social media. It’s just cause I read their post, see their stories, read their blogs, etc. I always say I’m here if you need to chat and I do. I know I’m a member, a guy, content buyer, etc but I’m a person who does care and tbh in my life I’m always been shy & anxious towards females. So I’m totally harmless. Just a guy who has mental health issues from years of being bullied and being abandoned by other ppl. One time even thought of suicide was people walked away from me in College & in my projects. They just left me. If I be honest, writing that down is hard without breaking a tear cause it’s a hard thing to really talk about.
I’m usually don’t get compliments or appreciation from other people so that’s why I’m blowing away by the responses I get online. Online I feel like I’m important to the SG community and the alt modelling community in general with my fan accounts promoting the models & all. Cause I am a fan. So it does mean a lot. In my offline/personal I’m mostly treated like an outcast, a nobody, “leave him alone he’s miserable” and all that. Hell my mates are rarely around. Thought I’ll see more of them after the summer but it’s a no. Hell I didn’t even have a good Halloween at all. So I’ve been a shut in again. Not out much cause I’m depressed. While I am happy that I’m mates with many of the people on here, my blogs are getting front page, I’m helping people out, etc I’m not happy. I’m in general miserable due to lack of loyal loveable and caring mates. I’m usually around my family. But I don’t always get along with. In fact the whole weekend I turn my phone off and stayed offline cause I was feeling miserable a lot. My house was too busy since my relatives were over and it was cramped. Had like over 20 people in the house and my house isn’t big. Not only that a lot were so hammered that I couldn’t get a moment peace. I lost so much sleep. In fact I haven’t had a good sleep for a while since I’m mostly feeling miserable. I’m like that guy from The Wedding Singer. All I want is someone to hug me and tell me everything is going to be alright, you got this and I want to help you like you do for others you know. But tbh I don’t help others for rewards. Even though a lot of the models do give me free stuff sometimes. But i never ask for it cause I don’t do that. I never want to do that.
But I do have a positive mindset. I do think about the people I talk to, the people I’ve helped or helping out, being there, the feedbacks I get, the video games I’ve completed (completed The Outer Worlds btw), my folks who are the only people who fully appreciate & love me for being me, the dishes I’ve cooked/bake, the Blu Rays/games/comics/CDs/prints/Polaroids I’ve collected and so on. I know I’m better than the personal life I’ve got. So trust me I am working on improving things. That’s why I love to give it my all in my blogs. Oh speaking of, I’ve got a new addition to my print/Polaroid/calendar collection...
I got @rubyalexia calendar to join with @keshia calendar. I’m debating to get more. See what happens. I’m thinking of getting of getting two more. But like I said I’ll see what happens. So yeah I always focus on the positive.
Like I said I completed The Outer Worlds on my Xbox One. Out on my walks again, going for more with my dad since my folks know I’m depressed and have done a lot for me as I with them. Also I’ve been invited to go see WWE Survivor Series over at my mate’s place so that’s something. Haven’t seen him since the last wrestling get together that was Summerslam. That was a good weekend and I’m in need of a good weekend. Also I’m baking something for my Mum’s work’s event. So that’s something. Need an excuse to bake more. I do generally love to bake since that & cooking has helped me to cope with my mental health issues like writing blogs and running my fan accounts have. Like the convos I have with many of yous lot.
No matter who it is whatever if it’s @blaizee @phianixx @chroi @rosieleigh @missjcristina @kaydie @sammiii @rubyalexia @manika @evoke @paigerose @syrinn @peachie_ @peachynorth @narsil @mermicorn @babu @sallyjanerain @asxna @gnomi @beckah @redkaya @evanesco @niallpatterson @tripodski @xheartswornx @hiptobes @ojtheviking @tink @keshia @dannikadaisy @justkoop @jasminelouise @kettle @sirena @sirenn @penny @25901jfm @diddy_dave_uk @therustycheez @vic_tso @kaptaine @nayru @nanci @leacheyenne @leighgabriel @anjave @glitcher @skittlepop @paulinki @stormymissb @helenarae @heatherrann @fla @infernum @its_hollyy @itissweetiepie @reaghan @gigirouge @akiramai @tommy @amortentia @ladyfirefox @heiwa @lorry @chiyosa @arachnie @haub @esmic @brizelll @chef @miss_bella_cyanide @misscherryfox @victoriaboness @barbs @ravenna @raphaelite @chalk @emberstrong @mariajupiter @olgakulaga @alexabstract @midnightpoison @cherrylowe @diamant @ashena @avenir @susu @anjave and many many more. I’m sorry if your not included. I’ll note it in my next list of awesome people I’ve known on here. I may have not chatted to most of yous often as I should. But if yous are reading this, yous are awesome. Yous actually help me cope and made me feel like I’m one of yous. And not made me feel like an outcast. Yous shouldn’t be thanking me. I should be thanking yous without being a cheesy fuck here lol. But truthfully thank YOUS. And even the people who are not on the site that are probably reading this through my link. First join this site damnit lol and secondly thank yous.
So yeah I’m a bit sad and alone in my personal life often but I know I’m not alone. I have yous. If yous want my WhatsApp is opening to yous if yous want. I know my mate @xheartswornx does that with the models so don’t be afraid to do the same with me if you want to chat. My WhatsApp is available so DM me if you want it peeps. Don’t worry I’m not annoying or anything but I understand if yous don’t want to but my DM box is open anytime.
I may get some Xmas Cards and send it to some of yous to say thank yous.
Speaking of my birthday is next month as well on the 17th. I don’t know what I’m doing for it. I usually don’t do anything for it. I have went out with my family a few times. One time it was at Frankie & Bennys since I’m so Scottish/British lol. Hell even had a chippies on one birthday. If you want to know it’s fish & chips. We call it chippies here, our way of words eh lol. I like it, what can you do lol. So I don’t know what I’ll be doing for my 32th birthday. Funny I don’t feel old. Then again I’ve always done activities, sports, etc throughout my life. Also I never done any bad habits besides boozing & weed a few times in college. But that’s it. Other than that I’m straight edge so that’s why I still feel like & look like a 20 year old lol jk. But yeah I don’t think about age that much with myself. Cause it’s never too late. Tbh I’m more excited for making Xmas dinner again lol. Whatever the plans is I know it’ll be good. Need more of that, especially with my personal life especially with most of my mates being unloyal & lack of communication. I get replies from models who are more busy than they are. So no excuses you know, just say I’m busy atm talk later you know. Just a lot of excuses going on with them atm my mates. It’s pretty pathetic tbh. But then again I’m glad their not around. Since it’s a bit of a headache with them. I’m laidback, easygoing, quiet, mellow and mature you know. A lot of times I’m trying to control them from saying anything embarrassing you know. Luckily it’s just most of my mates. None of them are bad guys don’t get me wrong. Just that they need to calm down, be loyal, show that they care and be around often you know. I hate saying that since it sounds like I’m demanding you know but I’m not. Only thing I want is just to hang out often. That’s all. Nothing more, nothing less.
But I still got this community, the mates I’ve made, my video games, my tunes, tv, films, cooking, baking and my walks so yeah it’s not all bad and I do need to remember that. It won’t be hard if I had a pet, hopefully it’s my Xmas or birthday present. One can wish peeps, one can wish lol.
Anyway that’s my In General blog done and dusted. I hope you all had a good read of it and if you did thank you very much. It does mean a lot like I said.
My next blog I may do another Appreciation Blog. Who knows see what happens.
Thank you so much once again peeps, yous are the best. Til the next blog this is KungFury saying take care, much love and the thing that really depressed me the most. Disney + isn’t coming to the UK til March 2020. Motherfucker!! 😭
@missy @rambo @sean @teal @eirenne
