Hey there peeps, hope everything is going well for yous all. Welcome to another edition of just me talking about myself and my life in general. Been a while since I’ve done a In General blog since been busy with 1st anniversary FSS blogs. So good to talk about myself and my personal life or whatever that comes to mind. I just wing it on there. It’s just good to talk about stuff off my mind. Or in this case type off my mind haha.
Anyway how are is my life in general these days?
Well things can be better but they can be worse. Luckily I had a house to myself last week which was welcoming. House was getting a bit crowded a lot due to my family overfilling my house when I wanted peace & quiet. Especially since I’m not online as much. I left my personal Facebook, deleted it. As most of yous who read my past In General blogs will know but to those who don’t, here’s a short recap. I got cyber bullied on there. Been getting cyber bullied on there my whole time on there. So I wasn’t on it much and decided to delete it. And thinking of deleting my Snapchat too since I never use it. The only social media accounts I got are my fan accounts. No lie. I prefer my fan accounts. No one knows me besides the mates I’ve made on here. Whatever if it’s photographers, models, members or other fan accounts. Everyone else don’t know who I am and I prefer that since I’m prefer being behind the scenes. Cause I was a best man for my brother’s wedding and I wasn’t in the right mindset/mood. I was mentally depressed and anxious all the time. I mean I don’t put things on. Ppl can choose to not believe me, that’s their problem. I know myself, I know I don’t bullshit. I’m straight up like I’m straight edge. Being front & centre isn’t me. In fact that’s why I rarely post pics of myself or post vids of me cause I am shy & not comfortable being out there you know. Like a lot of the ladies on here. Or some members like my good mate @arroezze on here. I’m more in the background. That’s why I’m comfortable doing fan accounts and blogs. Cause it isn’t about me. It’s about the models and the photographers. I know a lot of people know on here and in this community know I mean well. Always have. Just unfortunately ppl take my kindness, positivity, etc as a weakness. To try to bring me down. But of course I stand my ground.
It was like that the other week and I’m sure most of the models/members/etc that I’ve talked to or follow my fan accounts know that I had a falling out last night. Due to one of my mates on WhatsApp (don’t worry I’m not asking for anyones WhatsApp here) posting a video to me. It basically a porn video of a guy pretending to be disabled. And when he cum, he pretended to have a seizure like a disabled person would. It was disgusting and horrible. It was the most revolting thing I’ve seen. And I kinda lost it at my now ex mate over it. It was so bad. It really make me sick to my stomach.
Tbh I was never a porn guy at all. It’s not my type. Even though I have content from my favourite models that do porn from OnlyFans/admireme other sites like XtremePlaypen & My Naughty Selfies. Tbh it was to support them and I only watched them once. But it was never for me you know. I tried but it’s never my cup of tea. I’m not against it or anything don’t get me wrong. I just don’t like it personally. I’m more the glamour modelling photography fan. I mean I do like naked ladies like the next fella/lass but I’m not that person. That’s why I actually not been on OnlyFans or sites like that. Cause I hate seeing b/g videos. Those actually get me depressed to be very honest with you. I’m not saying they shouldn’t post it or anything. That’s why I don’t want to go subscribe to certain models. It’s nothing against them or the fella that’s in the b/g videos. For me personally it gets to me cause I am battling loneliness for many years now. So it does get to me personally cause like I said I was cyber bullied. One send a vid of himself getting a blowjob from a lass and basically insult me. Saying to me “you’ll never get this cause you’re a pathetic socially awkward cunt” true story. It basically really hurt me to my core. I usually get insulted by many ppl who bring me down cause I have problems with my social interactions due to my mental health issues. Got it from a lot of times being bullied, being beaten physically & mentally and being stab in the back by past mates. So that’s why I can’t watch them. Or even promote that on my fan accounts ladies, I’m sorry. I don’t like porn and never will. But it’s up to yous. Yous do yous.
I just stick to the exotic art/glamour modelling side of the fence you know. I can only go as far as girl on girl & that’s it. It is really a personal reason.
I have came a long way and I am improving a lot. Especially in talking to a lot of the ppl from here. People like @missjcristina @chroi @phianixx @kaydie @peachie_ @peachynorth @rosieleigh @mermicorn @syrinn @skittlepop @blaizee @niallpatterson @rubyalexia @sammiii @evoke @xheartswornx @kaptaine @hiptobes or ones I talk to on occasions like @reallifepirate @narsil @tink @keshia @tripodski @leacheyenne @nanci @susu etc. But I’m still shy to talk to some. Hell I’m anxious to even write blogs like this most of the time & tagging ppl you know. I know ppl say it’s cool, don’t worry about it. Talk to us anytime, etc. I still get the fear. I know it may seem from my Favourite SG Sets blogs that I’m good. But in truth I’m battling loneliness, isolation, social anxiety and depression every single day. I do see mates now & then but not as often as I like.
Hell tbh the best mates I’ve made are online & ppl I haven’t met face to face which are some of the ppl I’ve mentioned above. I know some said the same thing about me and I’m grateful for that. Seriously you don’t know the positive vibes that a lot of yous have said about me has helped me. You got no idea. When I joined this site I was kinda broken, was angry. Upset all the time. Hell if you saw my Facebook back then it was rants & raves cause I was very miserable. Nothing but negativity. But I’ve read a few things from other mental health sufferers. And watched videos online too. So I am getting there. Getting better with my mental health.
These days I’ve accept who I am. I’m proud I’m straight edge, I’m proud that I’m a easygoing laidback kinda quiet fella, I’m proud that I cook, I’m proud that I am a virgin, I’m proud that I don’t care what ppl think of me, I’m proud that I don’t treat people like shit, I’m proud that I’m honest, I’m proud that I play video games while everyone parties, I’m proud that I’m not a porn guy, I’m proud that my blogs are doing well, I’m proud that I’ve made mates on here, I’m proud that I treat females like equals as they should be, I’m proud that I got rid of toxic cunts that try to put me down, I’m proud that I’m loyal to my folks, I’m proud that I have a very small group of mates in my personal life that cares and most important of all I’m proud to be me. Cause I know I am a good guy.
Just like a lot of you I’m sick of the negativity, stress and hatred. I hate labels and ppl dividing others. We are all one you know.
So yeah I am getting there. I have been getting better. Going out to cinemas, walks, etc. As well as cooking, baking, gaming, reading comics, my fan accounts and watching tv/films as you do.
Hopefully my improvements will continue and I’ll probably post about it on future In General blogs. I do keep saying I want to do this and do that. So hopefully it’ll happen and I can post more happier things on this series of blogs. Getting there. I’m getting there so never fear peeps.
Anyway hope you like my blog. Thank you for reading and hearing me out. Miss doing it. I will be posting a new FSS blog somepoint as well as other blogs soon. See what happens. Nothing is written in stone just yet. But watch this space.
Until the next blog whenever that be this is KungFury saying take care, much love and don’t worry about me, I’ll be fully happy soon. One step at a time as they say! 😊👍🏻
@missy @rambo @sean
