Hey peeps, how are yous all. Hope everything is well and good. Welcome to another in general blog. Just me being me. As I always am. Just whatever comes to my mind or stuff I want off my chest. All in my In General blogs.
So yesterday by the write I wrote this, it was members appreciation day. And I was one of the members who was selected to be featured and I thank @missy @rambo @sean @lust and the rest of the SG staff for that. Means a lot. Also shoutouts from @glitcher & @peachynorth as well means a lot too. I’m grateful to the support I get. Tbh when I started doing blogs since I started in late 2017 I didn’t do it to get on Front Page, try to get a meet up, get followers, etc since I’m no leader or a beggar. I’m no convincer. I just do it cause it’s fun to do and why not right. Especially since all alt models usually get is a dick pic there and a send free nudes there. There’s no pretending here. I like that I blog about models positivity cause it is a cool thing to do. I don’t do it to get models and that to say I’m desperate, chat to me. Cause I never think they will but I was wrong. They have and I’m grateful they do cause I was afraid to even talk to them. Still to this day. Cause I see some of the most hateful anti male comments, memes, etc I’ve seen from the female models on there social medias. I get no replied & feeling anxious that I said something bad. In fact that’s my not so secret. I’m always anxious about being online. Talking to other people online. Even right now in this blog. I’m always scared. Even trying to start a convo is scary to me. I have left comments, always positive. But usually I get anxious and afraid I said the wrong thing.
I manage to keep my head on these since I’ve improved a lot. But still an anxious Scots who’s been a loner most of my life. It’s scary to connect to ppl with me, cause who knows if it’s genuine and all that. I know I’m genuine. Just sometimes those thoughts come to my mind. But then I focus on what people have said to me and towards me & even when I’m not around. Cause I do hear that I get talk about in private circles and it’s always positive. The feedbacks are always positive. The convos are always positive. Why the fuck am I still anxious? My blogs are on Front Page, I get shoutouts a lot, I’m featured in the Members Appreciation Day. Still anxious. But that’s my mental health issues in the nutshell. But I am grateful to all the love, support and friendships I’ve made on here. Tbh when I joined, That same year I joined was the worst year of my life. Ppl were holding me back, it was ongoing for years. Basically treating me like shit. I was having suicidal thoughts a lot. I haven’t really told anyone about this but yeah I wanted to end my life. Was dead unhappy and I actually txts my mates about it too but luckily the mates I got now have been great to me. Especially with the drama with my family and this awkward situation I’m in. It meant a lot that they stuck with me when my ex mates didn’t. I was a wreak. Still recovering since some of my family don’t get me and forget about that I deal with my mental health struggles every fucking day. Hell getting out of the house is a struggle, even though I do it but it’s a struggle when you were a shut in/hermit for years. Also even talking to people is a struggle for me too. Since besides my mental health issues, I got ASD. It’s a septum of Aspergers. So my social skills isn’t the best due to that. I always choke on my words a lot and have long pauses so I never hold a proper conversation well. I’m usually quiet and just small talk. It’s a daily struggle. Especially alone. And usually isolated within a family that are stubborn and don’t get it. Except for my folks but they also sometimes get on my case. Not much anymore since I stood up myself. And that’s the best thing about myself these days. I’ve improved a lot to say I have enough. I’m going to take a stand. Did that to my family and will do that to anyone that judges me. I know I have improvements still to be make. But I am getting there. I don’t do it to get ppl in my life or anything like that. I do it for myself, prove to myself that I am a good person. I know I am and I know I don’t want anyone to have a bad life. I know mental health struggles better than anyone. So don’t be afraid to chat to me.
Luckily things are better with me now. I have fan accounts that are growing every day and the amount of DMs I have there is great too. Lot of good conversations with many ppl. I don’t except anyone to reply back to me cause I know yous models/photographers/members have lives, ppl in your lives, a large amount of DMs, etc to handle with so I do understand. I’m probably the most understanding person you can talk to cause I know what it’s like. Feeling down and people pushing you around like rubbish.
Trust me ladies, we share a common pain. Before you post anti male post online. Remember not every guy is like the douche on that dm you hate, the douche who abuses you on or offline and so on. There’s guys out there who are in the same mental pain too, probably even worse. Least yous have your modelling, seeing your other models your mates with, seeing photographers you are mates with, etc. Some of these guys who are battling mental health struggles are probably worse and their alone all the time but their not getting supported or get anyone to help them. I’ll share this stuff to yous....
So before you post that anti mate meme. Say men suck, etc know that it’s a struggle for guys too. It’s a struggle for everyone. I’m not picking sides cause that’s bullshit. We are all feeling it and I think everyone should take online with a pitch of salt. Take everything with a pinch of salt. We all should be kinder together. Look out for one of other. We are all one. That’s why I post those memes to say that you shouldn’t focus on the negativity. You should look out for yourselves and everyone who is good to you, be good back. World needs more of that and that 76% Suicide Rate will hopefully drop, it applies to the uk but I think it applies to the world. It’s need to stop. So many ppl alone. It’s not right.
That’s why I like to chat about mental health issues and try to help out by doing blogs, fan accounts, etc. Cause problem is that I’m one of the small few who do this. I know @xheartswornx @ojtheviking etc does that. And we should have more than that.
So if your a guy and your reading this, say positive things to your favourite models. It doesn’t matter if they don’t reply. Then replying is a bonus. Do it cause the right thing to do. A lot of ladies do appreciate it. I mean look at me. Why you think I get shoutouts, good feedback, featured on Front Page, form friendships, etc from models? Cause I support them & actually talk to them. It’s simple really. It’s giving a shit. Then these anti male post will be a thing of the past. I know ppl can be assholes but they are good ppl out there. Don’t think that one person represents the gender, the country, the skin colour, etc cause that one person is an asshole. It’s like that with my brother & his circle of douchebags. Doesn’t mean my whole family are assholes you know what I mean.
Hopefully this blog will make that point clear. You get bad & good in all walks of life. Focus on the personality, always. Not everyone is a saint but not everyone is a sinner too. You get inbetweeners as well too. But one thing some of yous should remember is that everyone has their own problem. Think before you judge and we are all one. Always be kind, be cool, be badass!! 😎🤘🏻
In fact I’ll treat yous to one of my lyrics I’ve been working on. I should note that I’ve listened to a lot of Arch Enemy while written this. It’s called Human Legion.
“We are angry
With fires burning through our veins
Rage on our minds
We are mentally unwell
We are you
Being held down by ball & chains
We must fight through this
United we stand, divided we fall
We are a clan
Voices of the broken
Preparing our revolution
We are all share a common pain
We are our own enemies
Burying ourselves with hatred
We must crush negativity
Standing up for what is right
We are one
One people
One planet
We are one
All for love
All for gratitude
We are all one human
Discrimination only delivers pain
Hatred only harms the brain
Her blood, his blood
Human blood is the same, all the same”
That’s the lyrics I wrote for it so far. Keep meaning to post some of my lyric work to yous and see what yous think. If you want more and me talking about the meaning of my lyrics. Let me know. I usually write for fun since writing helps me out blocks out the automatic thoughts. It’s a good thing to do. Be interesting to see what ppl think of it. Hope you like that and I’ll do that separately. Call it Fury Lyrics. See what the responses are like.
Anyway that’s me done. Thank you for reading my blog and just hearing me out. It does mean a lot. Next blog will be my Blog Homework debut so stick around for that.
Til the next blog this is KungFury saying take care, much love and we are all one human. 😎🤘🏻
@missy @rambo @sean
