Hey peeps hope you’re all well and good. Hope everyone has had a bloody awesome weekend. Welcome to another Weekly Blog. This is just a general blog that I do every week to talk about various things. Basically getting to know me more. Seems everyone likes it so far so I’m continuing to do it.
So how am I generally? Hit & miss tbh peeps. I’m a bit low on energy, like I can’t move basically. These anti depressants I’m on are kicking my ass. I’m tired of the time and kept blacking out due to it so I’m stop taking them since their not doing me any favours. I am ok mentally this week. Been out on walks, cooking dinner, etc besides the major side effects from the meds. If you’re wondering I’m taking this anti depressant called Fluoxetine and it’s not really working for me. Been on it for two weeks so I should not be this knackered but I am. So I’m stopping it. I’m doing CBT anyway which is what the doctor really wanted me to do anyway. I’ve done my first session. So see where that goes.
So since I was tired, light headed and dissy a lot. I mostly stayed indoors. Which I do 24/7 anyway. Even though I am getting myself out there. Fed up being indoors all the fucking time you know. Even though I am enjoying Days Gone on the PS4, Rammstein’s new tunes, watching old school WWE, etc. Still alone most of the time. Even though I have been going on walks and just out & about with my Dad since he’s retired now from his work. Which is awesome since he’s in the same boat as me. Wants to do more walks and be away from the crowds too. Mine is a different reason than my Dad, as I have social anxiety. With ppl it depends with me you know. If it’s a lively crowd I’m fine. If it’s a more an aggressive crowd I panic you know. So I do my best not to be surrounded by that crowd. More laidback environment for me, better for controlling my mental health issues. I still need to work on communicating ppl more, even online. Despite the awesome ppl giving me awesome feedback and chatting to me on here, Twitter, IG & chatrooms. I’m still not confident. Still shy. It’s usually the same, I want to chat to whoever I get along with but I’m too afraid. Since I have been betrayed and bullied in the past by ex friends who were awesome at first til they bullied me & hacked my Facebook years ago. It was awful. Feel like a complete tit trusting ppl you know. Even though I know not everyone is like that. I still shy and anxious to speak to ppl on here. I do but I usually feel like this “oh no they hate me” “I don’t think they want to chat to me” “I’m a guy she’ll hate me anyway” etc. I know most of yous won’t think like that about me. Just what’s in my anxious head of mine. But I also do think yous have million of other messages, lives, things to do, etc. I know it’s not intention. Because when I do chat to the models it’s always positive.
I have talked to a lot of the models here and elsewhere. So I should try to keep improving my confidence. I mean I’m not looking for dates or anything. I’m not like those guys who are just cunts to females online. I know their humans too. Also most feel the same way as I do so it’s common. It’ll be cool if most were in West of Scotland where I live. Just meet up and hang out. But yeah I don’t think I’ll meet yous in person, never say never. Love to though. Cause I do consider most of yous mates you know. We all support each other. You barely see it that much these days and that sucks. It doesn’t matter what sex or colour you are, we’re all the same you know. Just hate feeling alone.
So I’ll be working on that, also on my CBT sessions, etc. I’m focused on my mental health more than ever. I love I can talk about it openly with yous. I’ll try to chat more when I can. I’m learning and improving as I go. As all you can do. I’m planning to do more walks, seeing Detective Pikachu at the cinema, get some pickups, buy content from my favourite models probably and write more blogs. I enjoy writing my blogs, it’s relaxing. It’s basically my anti depressants. Same with my fan accounts. Sharing and help my favourites models who are basically my mates of mine, I like to think so since we have things in common. I try to chat to them more.
Also my fellow members too. Who are the nicest people I talk to online. Ppl like @xheartswornx @ojtheviking @silentobjectorx @kaptaine etc. And the models like @chroi @bookcouple @reallifepirate @phianixx @peachie_ @blaizee @rubyalexia @syrinn @missjcristina @stormymissb @ohsammiii @tommy etc. I love to chatting to yous. Any of yous are welcome to my WhatsApp btw. Up to yous. Don’t worry I won’t annoy you with txts, I’m not a serial texted. I’m not Charles from Brooklyn Nine Nine hahaha.
So yeah my week was fine. I’m off my pills and hopefully I’ll be less tired now lol. I actually don’t think anti depressants work anyway. I’ve been on Fluoxetine, Diazepam, etc and they always make me feel off. I think I just to be more social. Less alone time. Being alone & isolated isn’t good for you. Trust me you don’t want that peeps. Stick to the ppl who make you feel like a somebody. Hopefully I’ll get to see my mates soon. As their always busy folk. And I’m working on other things too but that’s my business for now. It’s not 💯 yet but it’s something I’m working on.
It’s all a work in progress. So it’s all good things I’m working on. See what happens.
Anyway that’s my week so far. Now for my non Suicide Girl shoutout and it’s Indie Sweet. You’ll find her on Twitter Here and her Instagram Here and as you see here she is gorgeous. Hopefully she’ll be on here one day, she has pink potential don’t yous agree?
So beautiful. Do follow her. Great lass.
Anyway that’s my blog done for this week. Hope yous had a good week & weekend. Talk to me about it, I’m up for a chat anytime peeps. Don’t be afraid to, I’m more shy trust me lol.
Anyway hope this week is awesome as yous peeps. Yous are the best, yous deserve the best. Til the next blog this is KungFury saying take care, much love and don’t be afraid to chat to ppl no matter what! 😉👍🏻
@missy @rambo @sean
