Hey everyone, hope you’re all well and doing well wherever you are. Don’t worry I’ll do my usual favourite SG sets blogs soon. I like to do another blogs too and I prefer doing my personal ones since @xheartswornx does the favourite SG blogs better than me. I usually do random humour in mine. If I be honest with you, cause I’m all about being honest. I actually don’t like doing them tbh with you. It’s great that a lot of ppl like them and such but it’s a lot work. I’m not stopping them don’t get me wrong. I’ll do them still but idk if I should have long descriptions on them like @xheartswornx ones. As he does it better. I rather talk about personal stuff, my love for my music, a model who I get along who’s a hopeful who should be pink like @blaizee which is still my most popular blog. I only did that cause I think she does. It’s not for me , it’s for her. I would do the same for @rubyalexia @reallifepirate etc but their already pink lol.
I rather talk about my mental health and the improvements. I’m not looking for attention or anything. Tbh I’m so used to being ignored and unpopular that I don’t handle receiving praises or any positive vibes well. I usually go a little over the top and go holy shit really u know what I mean? I sure really go thank you and move on. Don’t let it go to my head. Think that’s sometimes the problem with praises. It can go to your head. I see a lot of ppl who are so used to getting loved by everyone that they become the very thing they hate. Cause they let their ego take control and consume them. You should always try to overcome that, brush it all with a thank you I appreciate it and keep going. You see it with celebrities. How many got mental health issues. Cause their so used to being loved by what they did or do but not for them personally. It’s not healthy.
It’s like that with those favourite sg blogs to me. They praise my blog cause it’s about the models and I do like doing that for them. But do they care about who wrote it. Idk. Not saying they are. But I get that thought you know. Like ppl only like what I post or do, not for me as a person. It’s like my cooking. I get ppl who just only care about my cooking only and that’s in my personal life.
I cook New Years dinner for example and I was depressed, I was unwell. The only time ppl talk to me was how good my food was. That’s it. And I didn’t say anything back to them. I just ignored them. Cause I don’t care cause they don’t care about me personally. No hello, how are you, are you ok and a how’s things. Just your food is great. Imo I think it’s rude that ppl in my personal life do that. That’s why my holidays was awful. My depression was on full mode, even now as I’m typing this. In truth, I’m not happy. The holiday was work to me. Didn’t enjoy anything about it. Sure I love cooking but I rather cook for ppl who care for me. My folk do. Seems like the only ones that do care both for my food & me.
That’s how I feel to be honest with yous all. Yeah I got video games, Netflix, music, walks, cooking and baking. Their pleasure. I love those pleasures, they help me cope. But they don’t make me happy. Being with the right group of people does. My folks are great but not all the time, my current friends I barely see and my other part of my family (mostly my relatives & the in law side) I can’t stand. In fact I hate them. Their ppl who are a bunch of uptight cocky fucks who only praise but not care. That’s plenty much ppl in my personal life.
Also ppl I chat to online are no different. Sure it’s not to all, I get along with a lot of yous here on SG. It’s mostly the ppl on XtremePlaypen. I’m barely on that site anymore. Now this is not a rant on all the models. In fact I still get along with a few of them and I do buy sets whenever. Same with OnlyFans. It’s just whenever. But I feel so down being on those chats cause it’s nothing but sales talks and I do get it, it’s ur job. Nothing personal. Just all the time. In fact I actually get bullied on there sometimes. Not naming names but there’s a few who have bullied me to give them more money, go on cams or you’re a dick, etc. Also I get a lot of anti Male hate thrown in my way for no good reason. Like I done nothing wrong. I’ve been nothing but a gentleman as much as I can online. But problem is the actual dickheads is them. Their bullying me for money and treating me like shit cause I’m a man who’s on site like this you know. I can’t help it. I’m a loner who’s been bullied in real life too. What else can I do you know what I mean? It’s like no matter what I do. Nothing’s good for ppl u know. So I block a few of those ladies and mostly done with XtremePlaypen & it’s shitty chatrooms. It’s been an awful experience.
Like I said not all of them are bad. I get a few of them I chat to on their Snapchats & that. I mean I do my best to be the better person and go to where the positive is. I’m more happy on here since I can openly talk about this with yous and I don’t get bad vibes at all here. Cause it’s an equal place and we’re all on the same boat. I like that. I hate drama and negativity. I get that in my personal life a lot, I used to on XtremePlaypen through a few of their models but no more. I’m only on here when I’m online.
I barely use my social media. I already talk that on another blog if you want to see click here. So I’m mostly stick to myself mostly. It’s kinda what I do best. But I do love chatting to yous all. Back in the summer I was thinking of leaving here but I love that ppl have been super cool with me here. All thanks to @xheartswornx @kaptaine cause they reach out to me, even still cause their going through the same pain too.
It’s not easy being a guy these days, Hell its not easy being a good person. Doesn’t matter if ur a woman or a man. Somehow being good is a I should ignore it and just say ur meal is good, nothing more. I think we all should try to help each other out.
So models I know you get abuse but not every guy is like that. Guys, not every girl is male hating feminists and everyone, not everyone is an arsehole. Stop focusing on the bad, start focusing on the good, be good to the good ones cause if you just ignore it, brush it off, etc it won’t be there tomorrow. You may loss it forever. And all there is trolls. And if they just praised for what you did/do without caring for who you are. That’s a sign of ppl you should get away from. Cause personally they don’t care for you. Their problem, not yours so don’t feel bad.
Those are the things I’m learning from topics on mental health issues and self care from the last year when I’m doing my best to beat my depression, loneliness, social anxieties, etc. I’m overcoming it. Doing my best to better my life.
I follow @reallifepirate social media and The Rock’s one too. All it is in their profiles is ppl who are hard working to better their lifes. Nothing stops. Keep going, push hard and achieve it. That’s how to do it. I envy that. Also I love John Cena’s tweets which are always positive vibes tweets when I was on Twitter. It helped me out. Still is. I use to post positive memes on my old Instagram before that was closed down. I was Kungfury87 on there and it was full of motivational quotes. I liked that but the profile closed cause I got flagged cause I post funny memes too. My old profile was random lol. But I got reported so it was closed. My old Snapchat I closed cause I was bullied by a certain model on XtremePlaypen. But I’ve limited my social media use to my food only. I rarely check on there.
That’s my life atm. Just trying to get by as much as I can. I stick to the ones that truly care for me and not bother by the ones that don’t. No matter who you are. No time for drama or arse kissing as they say. You can only rely on yourself.
Many ppl in my life are married or got a partner. I don’t care if I don’t cause I’m in no rush. I’m not afraid to walk alone. Cause I know it’s not my fault. I just stick to being good and positive. Like or don’t like, it’s up to you. That’s how I roll.
That’s me done another blog. Thanks for reading and hearing me out. I don’t expect this to be heavily liked but I don’t care. I know the right ppl will like it since it speaks to them too. Cause yeah no matter who you are, Male or Female. We all share the same pain. Let’s help each other and support each other. My mental health story is to hopefully help out others who feel lonely and depressed like I am & speak up cause it is ok to talk about it. Talk about it. Comment below or dm me. Let’s chat and have a good convo with yours truly cause that’s what it’s all about.
I prefer doing these blogs other the favourite sg set ones any day. I do like doing those blogs sometimes. Probably with less txt tbh. I’ll keep them short cause I think i don’t do that well like @xheartswornx who is superb. But I do my best. That’s all I can do.
Anyway thank you for reading this blog. I do appreciate it, yous are the best. Take it easy. Take care, much love and don’t let ego & negativity consume you. Fight back with positivity!! 😎🤘🏻
@missy @rambo
