kudra

A very specific nightmarish focus in my dreams is back with a vengence and driving me insane. I was plagued with these dreams for 2 weeks at the end of December and thought I had them all cleared out of my head, but surprise....a certain someone has a starring role again, every night. Playing little games that make me wake up crying and put a nasty cloud over my head that takes hours to shake off. And they may as well be real because they just reflect what I'm already feeling. I was starting to get used to it......but these dreams are like ripping the scabs. I wake up soaked in vinegar and salt and my head feels bloody and broken and my heart is calloused and bleeding.

Fun.