Tuesday Jan 27, 2004

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I'm so fucking excited. Tomorrow I'm buying a ticket to fly one of my best friends here in about three weeks. The last time I saw him was the two days we first met--and that was 5 1/2 years ago.

I'M SO FUCKING EXCITED!!!
escapegoat:
is the boy yer flying in the one with dreads?

Friday Jan 23, 2004

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Well......things are looking up. I'm not depressed anymore. And no longer fridgid. And back to being pretty much happy every day, and staying busy instead of sitting around crying. I'm about to be loaded. That's always good. And a six year long wish came true this week. Twenty years in the making, all for me. Me, me, me. Time to think about me. Not you.
vader_____:
It is good to hear you are doing better!!!

Monday Jan 19, 2004

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Seattle was fun. Sometimes I wish I could move back there, but I'm stuck in Portland for good, for reasons I won't go into.
I saw a good band called Go Like Hell who are playing at Grand Central Bowl on Morrison this Wednesday night around nine. You should go check them out.
daddiesgirl:
us too. jagerfairy and i cannot stop singing it, now matter how hard we try.

i'm sure you can get into that parka. no problem. and i have a feeling that parka is pretty worth getting into.

it was great to meet you this weekend. come back and play soon!
jagerfairy:

had a fine ass drunken , punk rock ,skirt peein' time with you last weekend ,

but more importantly................



what happened Wednesday night????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

details please........................



wink

Thursday Jan 15, 2004

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In this half-hearted, wayward attempt to be happy for a few hours, I figure I'll go to Seattle for a night this weekend. I can attend to Phoebe on his first night in Seattle and see Omar. Who is as cozy as I wish anyone could be right now. Maybe if I'm lucky I'll have yummy breakfast with my other friends after what is hoped...
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jaime:
I hope you are having a fabulous time. You deserve to have fun!
twwly:
i quite enjoy shenanigans.

Monday Jan 12, 2004

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One step forward, two steps back.
Still dead.
And now it's not just saddness, lucky me; my hostile, hateful side is coming out.
Who ever said life is short is wrong. Life is fucking looooooong.

P.S. three hours later.........one of my best friends, my oldest friend, actually, told me tonight he is moving to Seattle this weekend. He was just supposed to go do a...
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vader_____:
When you think things can get no worse BAM they do!
Such is the cruel joke called life- it sucks to lose friends that move away and there isn't anything you can do about it. frown
jaime:
Yeah, that totally sucks. I wish we could hang out...I hardly have any fun myself. I still need to call Phoebe. He probably hates me just like everyone else does right now.

We both know that when it rains it pours...& we're both sick of getting soaked!

Thursday Jan 08, 2004

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Lame, lame, lame. Those of you living in Portland know what I mean. I've been trapped pretty much in my house for the last 3 days, as the outside is covered in about 8 inches of snow with an inch of ice on top. I couldn't get out of my driveway if I tried. Nor could I get the ice off of my car, most...
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daddiesgirl:
awww, you poor thing.

all i have to say about that is that he sounds like he doesn't deserve to be the keeper of the only medicine.
jagerfairy:

I so hope things get better in your world lovely lady.

Thursday Jan 01, 2004

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For a time today I actually had fun. The first I've really had in practically a month. It's a regular winter wonderland here. I had a snowball fight and made snow angels. The whole bit.
It's crazy when it snows in Portland. Everyone freaks out. But I'm used to driving in three feet of snow so it cracks me up when no one will go...
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combatible:
love/hate lots of things ... photek is good though
jagerfairy:
hey lady!!!!!

yeah , I know , I can't believe I actually posted either..............

(grips chest and falls to the floor)

anywayzz , all's good up here.

the weather is pretty cracked out , but not as bad as down there I don't think.

the little woman and I have been layin' low and drinkin' wine by the fire.

how you?????

Wednesday Dec 31, 2003

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Maybe I'm just getting older (than most people on here, anyways) or maybe I'm just jaded.

But I think New Years is stupid and it sucks.

Big fucking deal. I have to catch myself from writing 2003 for the next three weeks before I remember it's a

New Year.

I'm too bitter. Who gives a shit?
thread_killa:
I don't think celebrating New Years is stupid, but I do agree that the way most people celebrate it is pretty dumb. Yeah, getting "older", I don't want to part of the whole "event" anymore. Just reflect on the past and share dreams of the future with a few close friends. Do you live in Northeast PDX? I used to have to sleep behind my bed on New Years, to avoid stray bullets from the neighbors!
vader_____:
New Year's blows-- especially if your year sucked who would celebrate another one coming to kick people's ass

Friday Dec 26, 2003

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I feel like I'm balancing on a spider infested log in a creepy ass swamp, and I can't get off of it. No happy thought lasts long; everything leads to painful memories and hopeless wishes. Every night is full of horrible, haunting nightmares with so many people from my past I have unfinished shit with. And one person is in all of them. I try...
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Monday Dec 22, 2003

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Wow. Last night I laughed, and today Bryce put bandaids on my heart.

Too see what made me laugh go here and go to the lounge and check out the 'pugophobia' section. There's a real cute picture towards the bottom of the page.

That silly Jim.
escapegoat:
ill never be able to pet a pug the same.......er maybe a little differently...............im not sure what i shall do, but my little butt pug will be special...........

Wednesday Dec 17, 2003

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I dreamt we had had a fight and we kept talking on the phone. I could see him making phone calls to me, but I wasn't there. We were making up and I was riding the bus to meet him, and he would call again from somewhere else. Each time he called I could see him, and he was in more and more desolate surroundings,...
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sicily:
cheer-up activity of the day:

project 'ass bomb'

material:
-fire cracker
-lighter

attire:
-skirt/no panties

instructions:

a. take a stroll down to the local super market
b. when no one is looking, insert fire cracker in butthole
c. go to festive, holiday isle
d. begin opening candy bags/boxes, etc., and consuming contents
e. when troglodyte employee asks you to stop, bend over and light fire cracker.
f. your strange behavior will confuse him
g. punch him in the face and briskly exit building.

(be sure to remove fire cracker from butthole before doing damage to yourself)

result:
grotesque amusement with self shall lead to a more satisfying day.
smile
jaime:
I wish that I could physically be in Portland to comfort you with some cherry coke, maybe some beef jerky and a great big hug.

nightmares..both in mind and environment...can spin your head forever it seems.

we share too many experiences...though they differ slightly, they are definitely similar.

It's true. The Partridge Family is suppose to sound fun, groovy and exciting, and they do....but the lyrics bring more pain to a hurting heart. We know all to well.

sorry if this comment is chaotic but it's really late and I got drunk at the Death In June show tonight, so.....

xoxox

Tuesday Dec 16, 2003

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Once you are in love, whether it has been there for one day or ten years, it still can crush you when it ends. Time unfortunately can't figure into that for me at all. I wish it could.
vader_____:
You will be fine sweetie!!
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