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Life certanly hows a nice way of waiting till the upmost time to give you all the shit at once. I'm really upset with a few of my friends and some others that I don't know if I consider to be friends anymore.

Happy again and everything is mostly back to normal. Think I'm going to the river tomorrow morning befor I work and then no clue about after that.

Went out wtih Aerielle again tonight and saw XMEN 3. The movie over all was sub par and they left out alot of good muttants. I think the first or second one was better. Even thought the movie somewhat sucked I still got to hang with aerielle, megean, and justin. Haven't seen megean or justin in a long time so that was fun to chill...
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Things seem a little bit better, at least that is when I talk to someone and they actully remember the next day. Funny how alchol can mess with someones head and make them forget, that or they "just don't remember" right...

Someone please help me find something else to get all this crap out of my head. I swear I'm like a damn broken record lately. I hate her, i love her, i hate her, its like the only damn thing that I think about anymore. My job seems to be going no where again and if that is the case come summer time i just...
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Yeah i have new friends, how nice...that is all for tonight

I fucking hate you for making me feel this way. I hate you so much and then in the same thought I don't want you to leave. I'm fucking torn between two worlds again and the only other thought in my mind is fucking run away to hawaii and escape it all over again. I hate relationships and feelings and everything else inbetween right now....
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Went out with some of the Outback folks again. It was pretty chill but some drama formed about Megan's ex and someone else i work with. I just sat back and talked to megan about it and I hope she is doing better.

I have a pretty good idea on things in my life right now, but I'm not sure how much of it I...
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So some what productive day, if you call working waking up 2 hours befor work then actully working for 9 coming home to play games for an hour then eating. Yeah so not so much but at least I didn't have to go out and drink more and spend more. I'm so bad with writing as is, can't seem to form sentances. Anyways I think...
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Strange night, out drinking woth coworkers and now i'm back at home. Mabey sleep would be a good thing, but I haven't been able to sleep well for the past couple of weeks anyways. Damn girl that is no longer in my life is still driving me crazzy as is. Fucking girl that i care so much about and yet I still get thrown out...
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Thank you that today is finally winding down to a close. Seems like things have been so strange in my life lately with alot of differebt things, work, friends, now ex girl friends, to much stuff all at once. O well keep smiling and hope something good will come out of this in the end.