kriss

"i'm becoming less defined as days go by
fading away
well you might say i'm losing focus
kind of drifting in the abstract
in terms of how i see myself
sometimes i think i can see right through myself
sometimes i think i can see right through myself
(sometimes I can see right through myself)

less concerned about fitting in the world
your world that is
cuz it doesn't really matter anymore (no it doesn't really matter anymore)
no it doesn't really matter anymore
none of this really matters anymore

yes i am alone
but then again i always was
as far back as i can tell i think maybe its because
because you were never really real to begin with
i just made you up to hurt myself
i just made you up to hurt myself
yeah, and i just made you up to hurt myself
i just made you up to hurt myself
yeah, and i just made you up to hurt myself
and it worked
yes it did

there is no you there is only me
there is no you there is only me
there is no fucking you there is only me
there is no fucking you there is only me
only
only
only
only

well the tiniest little dot caught my eye and it turned out to be a scab
and i had this funny feeling like i just knew it's something bad
i just couldn't leave it alone
picking at that scab
there is a doorway trying to seal itself shut
but i climbed through
now i am somewhere i am not supposed to be
and i can see things i know i really shouldn't see
and now i know why, now
now i know why things aren't as pretty on the inside

there is no you there is only me
there is no you there is only me
there is no fucking you there is only me
there is no fucking you there is only me
only
only
only" NIN

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Wow, I had a busy weekend. I spent the day with my mom getting spoiled. First my mother helps arrange the flowers at a historic home in Winston Salem the Renolda House. It was the home of the Reynolds tobacco family. So, as she worked I was lucky enough to tour the house a favorite of mine since I was little, all by myself for free.
Then we were off for a pedicure and manicure. After my hands and toes were properly massaged, and painted a beautiful shade of pink, it was off to get my moms new ring. She had my grandmothers one carrot diamond, and her carrot diamond combined with a new carrot diamond to create the most beautiful ring. It honors my grandmother in such a special way. Lastly off to lunch for great food, and fun conversation. I had a wonderful day!
My sister got married Saturday. We all had special jobs to help out. It was a sweet service. They wrote their own vows and had us all in tears! I know she will be happy and her children will grow from this union.

Now, fathers day has found me spoiling the men in my life. Soon we will head back to Chapel Hill and back to the life I have chosen, a happy secure life full of love and friends. I am one lucky girl!! I try not to take for granted the wonderful world I live in and the people who love me.

Best wishes to you all!
KRISS