krim

So my dad and his long time girlfriend broke up a few weeks ago. I just found out because this was the first time i've been back home, if i can call this home, in about a month.

She has been like a step mother to me for about 18 years, well since my mom and dad divorced when i was 5.

So tonight i went over to her house to drop off a computer and she was very upset. We talked for a couple hours and i got the details of what kinda happened and it pretty much disgusted me. I think less and less of my father every day. I just don't understand how someone can be so shallow and empty of emotion and concideration for other people at all. Granted this doesn't come as a suprise to me whatsoever because i've been living with him for the last eight or so months. It just drives me crazy that someone can fuckin be like that. What the fuck could happen to people to make them be like that.

Now i'm a firm believer in nurture over nature so with that in mind i can't help but think of what the hell he could've gone through to become a person like he is. I mean there are good things that i admire about him, but i can count them on one hand, but emotionally and personally he's a friggin empty shell. It can help but make me think there are other people like him or worse all over the fuckin world. And i would like to give a big "fuck you" if you seem to fall in that category. Don't have children, don't get anywhere near my children when i have them, just go get a cabin in the woods, get yourself about 15 cats, and leave the rest of us alone.