krakenskulls

_FEB 4, 2011
_3:43PM CST

ANXIETYYYYYYYY.

No haircut for me anytime soon seeing as how I'm not making enough money. Bills are due, and lawd. I owe the IRS that damned money by April 17th.

I'm not pleased with certain reactions my boyfriend gives with the conversations we carry. His apathy is shining through lately in a not-so-positive light. Then it seems every weekend, it's...
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Alright, dammit. This is getting ridiculous. For the past hour or so, I've had the inkling that MAYBE I can go to sleep but each time I go to close my eyes, that's when my brain wires electric waves through my mind and disturbs those trying to rest. Actually, the last time I tried sleeping - a very loud and sudden clash against my bedroom...
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Birdy Nam Nam - "The Parachute Ending"

I came across this video a couple of years ago while living in Arizona. It is still one of the most fantastic animations I have ever seen, and the song kicks ass anyway. So it's perfect.

Since I cannot think of anything to say tonight while I'm in this pit of angsty, self-pity...

This is me a year ago:

"Bottom of the Ocean When the Honey Drips

I never know what to publically write anymore. I worry about what people think. I worry if I'll upset anybody. Either way, I need to write something. I'm filled with the urge to...
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Class went well this morning. My professor is fucking GOOFY, but I like him. He has that crazy hair going on where he's bald on top but the hair he still has left is totally white & grey and it's wirey. Jumping all over the place. Like he never combs it. I like it. The number of students in there surprised me. I expected only...
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Class begins tomorrow at 9am. After class, it's work from 11am - 3pm. I'm so nervous.
Let's hope I can complete a semester at this college (it being my third attended).

I've also gone 48 hours without a cigarette. My heart feels relieved.

1/1/11.

As cliche as it is, I'm going to make some resolutions. A new year is an ideal time to set goals and evolve from the previous year. So my friends - you get the honor of reading some goals I've decided to set for myself:

• Read more.
It's silly that I'm an English major but I have the hardest time reading. Don't get me...
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Experienced some very, VERY new things last night. Re-experienced moments of mental deterioration.

I wrote most of what I was feeling down into a journal my boyfriend's brother gave me for Christmas. I haven't looked back to see what I wrote, and honestly - I'm quite afraid to. I know that it's interesting, but I almost don't want to relive what I was thinking and...
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I want to be an author.

Well, the alcohol did soothe my sore throat... But it seems I've woken up today feeling very sick, groggy, and messy. The chicken & shrimp pasta, spinach dip, and french onion soup have teamed up to give me the most terrifying gas that has ever escaped my body. Poor, poor Seth. He tells me he thinks it's funny how much I've dropped some methane bombs,...
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