I'm just fed up with where I'm at. I almost let things get to me at work and I realized it wasn't worth it and I'm just gonna get out of there. I've been thinking more and more about it lately, but today just sent me over the edge.

I applied for a music store for instruments. It's my...
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I'm being nitpicky and trying to get rid of some noise for when I try to record or whatever, and I just want it to go away.

But what I really want is just to play drums. I don't care about all this everything really. If I just got to play drums, I might miss playing guitar, but I'll doing what I...
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I got everything I need to start streaming, but won't start just yet. I did a lot and got my set up figured out.

And then I went to work.

You ever get that feeling where you're looking forward so much to the new that the old is no longer good enough? I'm there now. I don't want to be at...
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I talked with my girlfriend and it's time I really get my music out there. I decided to do twitch streaming in the future. I have planning to do and stuff to get, but I think it will be good for me to do.

This also kinda means I should really flesh out some stuff and try to finish my songs. Most of them...
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So my manager started saying "So this thing about native americans" and my co-worker just looked at me like "oh! let's see what he has to say about this," and I just gave full interest and said, "Yes, what about native americans?"

That made him fumble for a second. haha

In my adventures of figuring out more music stuff, I just want it to be interesting. I think if I didn't listen to metal, I'd probably listen to classical music cause pop music is just really boring to me. At work I counted on many times they said "so close" in a phrase. 4 times. 4 fucking times. And it was just one...
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For a long time I thought there were "wrong" things to be doing in music, but with new insights about melodies, motifs, and developing stuff, it's quickly changing.

I would more or less stumble on ideas that I liked and would turn into songs, but now I am thinking I could do just about thing and if I develop it the right way it...
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1. Nothing is a bigger motivator than something that benefits you.

2. My job doesn't matter.

I've been working more on my music and figured out stuff I need to do and how to do it, or at least get myself there. And it's very important to me.

My job....is just a means for me to live. I want to do...
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