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I picked up Belle's ashes today. I do feel better that she is here instead of thinking of her body in some freezer miles away. I feel better. She is her with us. I sat the ashes in her spot by the window. I feel better.

Then I took the very happy MMPI today... yes, I DO think I would like to go to Africa...
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kristie:
Ugh! A slug! Gross.

That's really wierd because there was a huge slug in my dream last night. Random! surreal
mightytick:
It's 2:22 am do you know where yout slugs are? How are thngs today? Feeling well? I was looking at your favorite movies, ever check out Sean of the Dead? Just saw it, I thought it was realy funny. Might be right up your alley.
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arcticminx:
heheh, me too! That is why I am taking aerobics. Got tired of feeling old when I am so not! biggrin
punkndrublic:
is your kittie okay (other than being yellow)

p.s. glad your back!
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frankeng:
aww thats cute. love
i was on my garage roof when i was drunk and fell off, we still can't figure out how i got up there. confused
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I just wrote someone a "sorry I have neglected our friendship" letter. I haven't spoke to him in a long while & when I see him sometimes in this small little town I have ended up acting all weird & shy. I miss him. I added my new number to the email. Maybe he will forgive me.

I have another friendship dilema I must deal...
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mightytick:
oh, don't know if it works for you, but we could trade happy cat stories. It may make you miss Belle, but it might cheer you up too!
mightytick:
You have to watch out for likeing eel too much, I here they are being fished to extinction realy quickly.
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I keep meaning to do this. I know some of you don't have any pictures of yourselves up on here. Well, last night I had 2 dreams about people on my friend's list.

One of the dreams was good times. But, the other dream was about minxtamer & since I don't know what you look like, dude, this dream you were just a creepy ghost-like...
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mr_rick:
check under your preferences...that should be where you can tell about your account.

and i didnt think you were ignoring me LOL i just think thats a funny tag. and im sure it gets her goat LOL im vengful like that.


rick ARRR!!!
mightytick:
Well there are two ways to explain why your dead pets show up in dreams. One is that you are thinking a lot about them and your subconcious mind inserts then there. This is the most logical, but least comforting. The other is that they are comforting you, or sending a message to you from wherever pets go when they die. This is the least logical, but maybe the more comforting, depending on the dream.
I've had many pets over the years and I still dream about all the pets that have died. Most of the time as if they never died but are still with me and that I am the age I was when I had them.
The only dreams of pets I have where I feel any guilt are the ones of the rabbits I used to have. My parents treated them more like live stock than pets, so when they got sick they wouldn't do anything about it.
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Today.

I had a pretty good day today. Went grocery shopping, which was interesting... I think there were old men doing the old-man-shuffle passing me in the aisles.

I heard Cherub Rock on the way home from the store & that made me very happy. It changed my whole mood & woke me up from this.

I thought back to when a boy named Ben...
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molonel:
A good dream, I hope. I would hate to think that I've occupied that part of your mind where nightmares come from.
frankeng:
marrie me
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LONELY
I feel sad. Lonely. All that. I pace around here feeling lost & empty.

I haven't felt lonely in years, not all the time & this bad at least. I don't even really know what it is I am lonely for. A significant other? A friend? A pet? My son when he was just a boy? I don't know.

I was perfectly, pleasently content...
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velvetknuckles:
They are words of true wisdom luv....
mr_rick:
i wonder that too. i know you have read her journals, if not you should go back through and look at them. i never made any kind of remark that would make her feel the way she does. i was nothing but curtious. i even offered help with some photogrpahy issues. and when i found out i was the one she was talking about i even appologized. but she continued to write about it in her journals AND mine. i never went back and wrote anything in hers, i respected that. but she kept it going. LOL its comical now, but i just didnt understand why she felt that way all of a sudden. i was on her friends list for 4 months. and like you said, it is a site of nudity so we are intrigued by that, but we also enjoy the openmindedness of the people who write and keep journals. you have to be crazed if you think writing a PUBLIC journal wont get responses. if thats how she felt...she shouldnt be writing. nuff said.

and sweety....you will be to what you had 8 weeks ago. it will take some time but it will happen. it didnt happen overnight to get where you were then, so give it some time. if it gets tough...you have many friends here willing to make you feel wanted and needed. just lean on us when you need to...we are here for you.

rick ARRR!!!
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I went for a walk tonight. I was hoping to see more Christmas lights since I seemed to miss the whole Christmas spirit thing because of everything that happened. But even though everyone had them still up, only 4 houses had them on. That was good enough & it did make me smile.

While I walked I thought of everything that happened & decided that...
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heff:
Man can anymore shit happen to you? I swear your going to with the 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 dollar lottery one day...

Hope you feel better babe!

--Heff--
frankeng:
but u are alot stronger then me b/c if i make it to plain e i may give up
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DEATH
I never understood how much my kitty was intergrated into everything I did. I keep doing all those things, then realizing she is gone & I start bawling like a baby.

Like when I open the door when I come home, expecting her to be sitting right there like she always did. I always had to be so careful on entering so as not...
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frankeng:
i'll come over with a 1liter of jager i drink half you do what you want with the other half
frankeng:
wink wink wink kiss love