Very weird day yesterday. I was shopping & it started pouring & thundering & I got soaking wet from the store to the car. It was as if I had jumped into a lake. No part of me was dry & my bangs were dripping into my eyes & I had to wipe the water off my arms when I got in the car because they were streaming down & tickling my skin.
And there was lightning too & when I looked everywhere, it seemed St. Helens was flooding alittle bit. Cars were going slow because of the "river" going down the main street. It had only been raining for about 10 minutes. Totally strange. When I got home I saw that my parking lot was already flooded on the far side. I kept looking at my roof, wondering if I would be up there by the end of the hour. Yes, I am paranoid... I watched too many Katrina programs this week.
Funny thing is, I had just dropped my son off at a BBQ party right before I went to the store.
My guts are doing much better. I started taking digestive enzymes about 4 weeks ago & I have been fine ever since... well, not fine, but as good as I have been since March 22. I can't believe I was in so much agony for so long. I was so sick, I neglected everything... I just didn't care... I didn't get my hair cut or colored or anything like that. I am a mess.
I am still very freaked out that I will get sick again. I worry about it every day. I haven't got used to being well.
I have been eating alot more lately. Although, I did count my calories today to see what I am getting now & I am only at 1,000 right now... I can't see myself eating any more before bed. I am so full. I do get up 2-5 times at night though to eat cereal most nights. I don't know why I can't eat all I need in the day. It is so very annoying to wake up all night to "groowwwwwlllll" ha ha. Oh well.
I have two gray people.
~~~~~~~~ Sept. 11th
My 9/11 story...
My son stayed the night at my mom's house, because I had worked into the wee hours of the morning & I really needed to sleep in. Well, the phone rang & woke me up after I had been asleep for an hour or so. I answered & my mom said "We're going to war!" In my groggy state I was confused. I thought she meant her & my son were at war about getting ready & going to school (which was VERY typical of the boy at that age). I said "What do you want ME to do about it?" Then she said "Turn on your tv." So, I did & my heart stopped & all the hairs on the back of my neck stood up as I saw plane one, then plane two. I almost threw up.
I still don't see why my mom had to wake me after working all night & all morning for that. There was really nothing I could do & there was no evacuation or anything.
I mean, sheesh, after I turned on my tv & tramatized myself, my mom said "Ok, well I have to go drop off the boy now... bye." & hung up, just like that. So, I was left all alone, tramatized, with no one to talk to, in a delirious state of exhaustion & I couldn't very well go back to sleep at that point, of course... which only made the 9/11 anxiety for me 10 times worse. I think I was a bit hysterical for the next 2 or 3 days.
Mom's are so great.
And there was lightning too & when I looked everywhere, it seemed St. Helens was flooding alittle bit. Cars were going slow because of the "river" going down the main street. It had only been raining for about 10 minutes. Totally strange. When I got home I saw that my parking lot was already flooded on the far side. I kept looking at my roof, wondering if I would be up there by the end of the hour. Yes, I am paranoid... I watched too many Katrina programs this week.
Funny thing is, I had just dropped my son off at a BBQ party right before I went to the store.
My guts are doing much better. I started taking digestive enzymes about 4 weeks ago & I have been fine ever since... well, not fine, but as good as I have been since March 22. I can't believe I was in so much agony for so long. I was so sick, I neglected everything... I just didn't care... I didn't get my hair cut or colored or anything like that. I am a mess.
I am still very freaked out that I will get sick again. I worry about it every day. I haven't got used to being well.
I have been eating alot more lately. Although, I did count my calories today to see what I am getting now & I am only at 1,000 right now... I can't see myself eating any more before bed. I am so full. I do get up 2-5 times at night though to eat cereal most nights. I don't know why I can't eat all I need in the day. It is so very annoying to wake up all night to "groowwwwwlllll" ha ha. Oh well.
I have two gray people.
~~~~~~~~ Sept. 11th
My 9/11 story...
My son stayed the night at my mom's house, because I had worked into the wee hours of the morning & I really needed to sleep in. Well, the phone rang & woke me up after I had been asleep for an hour or so. I answered & my mom said "We're going to war!" In my groggy state I was confused. I thought she meant her & my son were at war about getting ready & going to school (which was VERY typical of the boy at that age). I said "What do you want ME to do about it?" Then she said "Turn on your tv." So, I did & my heart stopped & all the hairs on the back of my neck stood up as I saw plane one, then plane two. I almost threw up.
I still don't see why my mom had to wake me after working all night & all morning for that. There was really nothing I could do & there was no evacuation or anything.
I mean, sheesh, after I turned on my tv & tramatized myself, my mom said "Ok, well I have to go drop off the boy now... bye." & hung up, just like that. So, I was left all alone, tramatized, with no one to talk to, in a delirious state of exhaustion & I couldn't very well go back to sleep at that point, of course... which only made the 9/11 anxiety for me 10 times worse. I think I was a bit hysterical for the next 2 or 3 days.
Mom's are so great.
You don't even have to get your hair cut... I'm a mess too.
Today is just not a good day. Hang in there. I'll try to as well.