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Thursday Dec 09, 2004

Dec 9, 2004
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Damn. I had some evil nightmare last night. I am still shook up about it.

In the dream I was with a guy I dated years ago on & off (let's just call him Rick). Well, Rick was trying to get me to pick him & leave my bf. He was going to leave his wife so we could be together if I did. I was unsure what to do. I was torn between my bf, who is perfect & my ex, Rick, who I never (in reality) exactally got to be bf/gf with & I was wanting to see how that would turn out since we had been friends for 10+ years. So I was torn & upset, sitting with him in my parents dining room. Talking about it, holding hands. I could smell him & it was so real, I could feel his hand on mine. Next thing I know, I am waking up & I look over & Rick is laying next to me naked, on his stomach & is soaked in blood & he has stab wounds everywhere in his back. I am holding the knife naked next to him. I scream. Then... shit!... he turns his head slowly, looks at me & softly whispers "why?"

....then I wake up (really) & I have to go check the whole house to make sure I didn't really actually kill someone. It was that real.

I am still upset & couldn't even tell my best friend about it. My stomach is sick just thinking about it. Maybe writing it down will lessen the trama in my mind.
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suicidal_george:
Oh, and you shouldn't post surprises in my girlfriend's journal (durh!) we've been meaning to swing out your way and visit so you could give me the card then. Or maybe some double datage? I'll ask... Ya know, i vaguely recall not getting an xmas card 10 years ago; you were like 'I forgot to send it out, i'll get right on it'. tongue

And hey! You put up a picture in glasses (that get's 'you're cute' compliments, BTW) after I felt bad about teasing you? Women!
Dec 10, 2004
thesixx:
Your dream sounds like a Ben Affleck and Sandra Bullock movie. wink
Dec 11, 2004

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