kozmikgirl

SMALL TOWN
So. I went shopping at Safeway yesterday. I go there all the time & although this is a small town I rarely see anyone I know. And I am hot. I am sweating. And for some asshat reason none of the store I went to yesterday had AC. I am in a piss of a mood because of this.

I see my friend drive by. The friend that I wrote the apology letter to finally (which was unnecessary, come to find out). I watch her drive by & think about how it is nice to know that we are still good.

Then I go inside & when I go to get the lovely sour cream this guy looks at me & does a double take & smiles. I then quickly realize that I am talking to way too many guys on the internet that live in my small town. Shit. I am not sure, but I assume it was this guy Jason. I wasn't sure. With his shades & my bad eyesight I just couldn't tell for sure. I didn't want to know for sure, then I would have to say hi to him & I was sure that I stank of sweat... LOL!

Then I see a guy I am talking to from the next town over. Shit!!!

Then I see the cop I used to talk to on the phone that I almost dated until I realized he was a nut job.

THEN I see the guy that I had my last freak-out-delete-myspace-account-like-an-idiot about. I am so stupid. I know this. Can you all please forget this stupidity (even though I keep bringing it up LOL)? But, damn he is so cute. So, I start to sweat more, of course. Damn him anyway. He make me so nervous even rounding the store & not noticing a thing, just minding his own business. Asshole.

I then get in my car with my precious groceries & as I pull out I see my friend drive by again. I tail her, pass her & give her some sexual gestures. She is picking her nose.



DATE?
I went on a date last night. Ok, so I don't know if it was a date. I never know any of that. Remember last time I said it was a date & he said no no no it was not... even though he brought me flowers? So, I will not try to label it since obviously men are uncomfortable with this label of "date". So, I hung out with some dude last night. Ok?

Anyway, it was the dude from the webcam. I didn't know what to expect, but he was funny & nice & everything. Perverted too, which is always a bonus. But date? Who knows...

He paid = date
He called me & asked me to go with him to the movies 1.5 hours before it started = friends hanging out
He picked me up at my house = date
He didn't go for the goodnight kiss = friends just hanging out
He held my hand at the movies = date
He held my hand only for afew minutes at the very beginning of the movie then made some perverted joke then didn't touch me again = friends just hanging out
He smelled my neck = date
He hasn't sent the "I had a good time" email = friends just hanging out

But, I have already seen his penis via webcam so... ?

I am not really concerned. I am trying to stay neutral about it all. I don't what to particapate in over-analyzed super freak out shenanigans again, like I have done so many many times before... lol! I don't want to become "too attached to outcomes"! LOL!!!