kozmikgirl

I am completely depressed. My chest feels heavy from it. It is really bad. He is sleeping on the couch, but I can't be close to him & tell him anything. I have known him for over 5 years, but I don't seem to know him really.

Everyone has an angle. No one seems authentic anymore. Everyone is a hustler, everyone is a manipulator.

What about being polite to people? That is non-exsistant these days.

And what of being mindful of the world around you? They just all go go go with no thought of any kind of butterfly effect.

It is ok, I will learn to live like this, but I will never be like all that.

My cat is about to die, I just know it. And nobody gives a shit about me or my sadness about seeing my cat deteriorating.

What an empty month, week, day, hour... life.

Can't wait for it to be over.