kozmikgirl

I found 4 "Happy Birthday" balloons by my front steps this morning. It is not my birthday, but they made me so happy! They are sitting right here & they make me smile. I don't know why these simple things cheer me up and then simple things make me sad again.

Anyway, I have discovered that one of my cousins is very talented & is...
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So, my stomach is driving me crazy, as usual. Everything makes my stomach feel sick in one way or another & I really get tired of analyzing everything before I eat it... will this make me sick today? Will that make me sick even though it never has before? Fuck, should I eat at all today? I think it is just that my stomach follows...
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I think I am way too negative most times & I feel like I can never see the good in anything lately. So I went to the bins & found an empty journal & got an idea to only putting things into it that make me happy until it is filled. I wonder how long it will take?

Some things in that journal are:

~I...
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I have had a rough few weeks, the last few days being the worst. I decided today is my quiet day. I have turned off all my phones & answering devices, I am avoiding anyone who knocks & I am just spoiling myself, napping & laying around. It always makes me feel better, especially the chocolate part of the spoiling.

I often wonder if anyone...
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Goodnight.

I thought life was so good... then this week happened... although I am fully aware that it could be worse, I feel bad.

Long story short...

~I have $6... that is including checking, savings, stocks, bonds, etc.

~I still owe $73 worth of bills.

~Damn cat peed all over my bed (she has never peed anywhere in the last 6 years I have had her...
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I have been having weird dreams lately. Well, actually I always seem to have weird dreams. Since I went to Teplick I keep having ones about eye surgery. In the dreams everyone is so nice, the doctors & nurses... & the surgery goes well, but for some reason it is taking place in a sewer or a back alley. Hmmmmm.

I get some $$$ tommorrow....
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Well, I went to Teplick yesterday to see about LASIK surgery. It was the biggest pain in my ass to get there, but I was determined!

He said my eyes are great candidates for surgery! Good to go! I am so happy, I cried on the drive home... three times. Sight...

Sight! Sight! Sight!

I just can't believe that by summer I could be able...
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I am going to Teplick for my free consultation on Wednesday to see if I am a good candidate for LASIK surgery. I am pretty sure I am because my opt. has always said that I am.

I really can't wait to be able to just wake up & see. No fussing with stubborn contacts with tired eyes. No more taking out contacts, cleaning them,...
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I complain too damn much. I am not going to complain at all tomorrow.

RANT OF THE DAY...

I am sick of birthdays. I always forget other people's birthdays & I wish that this birthday crap didn't exist. All they are are another thing for me to try to remember, then forget anyway & it is just another reason for me to be pissed off at myself.

I forgot my friend's birthday back in Dec. after she did so...
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My cd sold for $23.52... that free shipping gets them every time! Ha!!!

I am really surprised that I actually have a significant other this Valentine's Day I haven't had one on the V-day for years... maybe centuries.

My kitty goes to the vet from 8-5 tomorrow so they can do blood sugar tests on her all day to see if she is in deed...
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