I'm not really sure when i lost it. I do remember that i use to have it, i had a great love for things that i found interesting and exciting. Now a days i find something i think i love and lose interest within a month. Could be that i have been depressed this whole time and just never really knew it. I was diagnosed with ADD when i was younger, i never took medication for it. Maybe i just need the right people in my life or anyone for that matter. Being alone is something that never really bothered me, it sucks at times when something exciting happens to you and there is no one to tell. It doesn't stop it from being exciting though (lol). I honestly have no idea what friendships are suppose to be like..not sure how i feel about that.
I'll be the piece of shit you are making me out to be so long as it helps you. I wish you peace, love and happiness. <3