Perspective...
As UA 947 roars into the sunrise, I look down to see Amsterdam growing smaller and smaller - it is mesmerizing to see the city from above - the grachts and parks, rowhouses and squares dividing the city up into little chunks of shape and color. I am flying to Los Angeles - home, although I have denied its place in my heart for...
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As UA 947 roars into the sunrise, I look down to see Amsterdam growing smaller and smaller - it is mesmerizing to see the city from above - the grachts and parks, rowhouses and squares dividing the city up into little chunks of shape and color. I am flying to Los Angeles - home, although I have denied its place in my heart for...
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_v_:
wave to me when you fly over the east coast
Schipol was a mess this morning, over an hour wait to get through customs - and I saw ONE person use the Privium line. Damn, I wish I had an EU passport sometimes. UA 947, again, with my usual flight crew. I finally got up the nerve to ask my favorite flight attendant out on a date - we are going to go out in...
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_v_:
i still don't get what you do
you travel enough to have a favorite flight attendent
nice
you travel enough to have a favorite flight attendent
nice
cheech:
Oh, you're in town? Damn, I go away for ONE day and I see this! Where are you?
I leave for Washington D.C. Today.
I tried to spend last night saying goodbye, putting things to rest.
Although I was exhausted, there seemed to be no hope of sleeping, I spent the long hours of darkness listening to the echoes of our empty house my mind reeling with hope and fear, inspiration and desperation.
At 5:00 I finished packing the last of my things,...
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I tried to spend last night saying goodbye, putting things to rest.
Although I was exhausted, there seemed to be no hope of sleeping, I spent the long hours of darkness listening to the echoes of our empty house my mind reeling with hope and fear, inspiration and desperation.
At 5:00 I finished packing the last of my things,...
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tororo:
So many posts, about so many things, since you're back to your SG journal! I read them in a row... no surprise you felt overwhelmed... at least, seems you did overcome the sinking feeling?...
tororo:
Is it done? You're American again?
Everything changes today, and I am still not sure how I feel about the situation. I am left contemplating the what ifs and whys which is a dangerous thing to do. I slept for three hours before they started cutting down the trees, and seem condemned to spend this last day in an exhausted haze of confusion.
Tomorrow, I am excited for tomorrow - If...
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Tomorrow, I am excited for tomorrow - If...
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koolthing:
not harsh - just a little too hectic, even for my taste...
;-)
;-)
cakemix:
hopefully it will all slow down when we hit the sunshine.
Sometimes things just *click*
I have always wondered what happens in your brain when you have a sudden epiphany - when something that you previously didn't understand snaps into your range of understanding for the first time...can you remember when you rode a bike the first time - suddenly your body just figured out what it needs to be doing in order to make all...
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I have always wondered what happens in your brain when you have a sudden epiphany - when something that you previously didn't understand snaps into your range of understanding for the first time...can you remember when you rode a bike the first time - suddenly your body just figured out what it needs to be doing in order to make all...
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cheech:
Random ranting's alright if it makes you think.
ps - thanks for the link. I've supported various charities financially (Save the [Chesapeake] Bay, NRDC, Lambda Legal Fund, and bits to disease-related and "celeb" charities [Gary Payton's Glove Foundation, the 'Dead's Furthur Foundation]) but, as I said, genocide's becoming too recurrent and serious a problem to ignore.
[Edited on May 18, 2003]
ps - thanks for the link. I've supported various charities financially (Save the [Chesapeake] Bay, NRDC, Lambda Legal Fund, and bits to disease-related and "celeb" charities [Gary Payton's Glove Foundation, the 'Dead's Furthur Foundation]) but, as I said, genocide's becoming too recurrent and serious a problem to ignore.
[Edited on May 18, 2003]
_v_:
algebra finally made sense?
hmmm?
hmmm?
...there are no words.
There are just no words to describe how overwhelmed I am feeling.
I am treating the feelings like quicksand. Just relax and breathe, try not to struggle too much - or the sinking feeling will grow faster and faster...
There are just no words to describe how overwhelmed I am feeling.
I am treating the feelings like quicksand. Just relax and breathe, try not to struggle too much - or the sinking feeling will grow faster and faster...
Finally got caught up on sleep last night, SG was down , but cakemix was kind enough to entertain me with some rapid fire e-mail. SG is down again this morning, so I am going to try and deal with "real world" pending issues like getting my plane tickets. I am supposed to fly to LA next week, and I haven't had a chance to...
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cheech:
Blood And Belonging opens with a chapter on "Croatia and Serbia" but I haven't read it yet. I suppose I will...but I have been saddened by what I've read in Safe Area Gorazde and Brian Eno's A Year With Swollen Appendices about Bosnia. I'm not saying I won't read sad nonfiction; I think it's important to. Right now, I have checked out from our library We Wish to Inform You That Tommorrow We Will Be Killed With Our Families. I desperately need to learn about Rwanda...but let's be honest, this book will depress me (it should, if I am sentient) so I haven't started yet. I think it's important to have awareness about genocide because 1) it is the worst thing in human existence, 2) most people associate it with 1940s Nazis, despite how active it is today.
In lighter news, I am very ignorant about plane tickets. As a reference librarian, I should be able to tell people which sites to use but I'm totally ignorant. And one of the nicest people I ever met online was in Singapore. I regularly chatted on Geocities with her at a time when I was very down, about 5 years back. Hmm sadly I can't remember her screen name...
In lighter news, I am very ignorant about plane tickets. As a reference librarian, I should be able to tell people which sites to use but I'm totally ignorant. And one of the nicest people I ever met online was in Singapore. I regularly chatted on Geocities with her at a time when I was very down, about 5 years back. Hmm sadly I can't remember her screen name...
cakemix:
happy to entertain you on line sweetie = just wait til next week and we can do it in real life!!! have you seen the book called radical desires? i'm the dreadlock woman all tied up in japanese bondage in there...u show me yours now!!!
It is a re-post (sort-of), but appropriate for the moment...
An exerp from an old letter to the *deleted for sounding like an emo loser*
As bad as things could possibly be, problems solved by money are not really problems, are they. I am exhausted, and desperately trying to calm my mind so I can sleep for a while, and put things back into perspective......
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An exerp from an old letter to the *deleted for sounding like an emo loser*
As bad as things could possibly be, problems solved by money are not really problems, are they. I am exhausted, and desperately trying to calm my mind so I can sleep for a while, and put things back into perspective......
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fixer:
an expat group here sounds good. or do we do it wide-area, and start a www board & resource site?
cheech:
I finished the chapter...yeah, there are several Ukraines. I was reading about the fairly-Russian-assimilated people yesterday. Today, I learned about: the Muslim Tatars who had been forcedly removed from Crimea to central Asia and returned with renewed separatist feelings; the Russian/Ukrainian navy (yep, on the Black Sea) which was, at the time of Ignatieff's writings, not decidedly Ukrainian or Russian, with ownership still being debated (I have to find out what happened there); most people in Odessa dislike Battleship Potemkin because they are pro-Cossack; Russian miners in the industrial Donetsk area, while not pointedly anti-Ukrainian, were scoffing at Ukraine's ability to be independent from Russia.
A stunningly beautiful afternoon in Amsterdam.
The shops are closed, and the city is in the park celebrating spring.
I am still exhausted from all of the drama of last night, and hoping to catch a nap before The Martix tonight, but the chances of that happening seem less and less as the afternoon wears on. I left very early this morning, and have been...
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The shops are closed, and the city is in the park celebrating spring.
I am still exhausted from all of the drama of last night, and hoping to catch a nap before The Martix tonight, but the chances of that happening seem less and less as the afternoon wears on. I left very early this morning, and have been...
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I am still in a bit of a daze after the numerous 3:00-5:00AM phonecalls last night. Jason was stuck in Amsterdam, and called after his "date", the ex called screaming something about Wells Fargo (I have to investigate today), and the usual US blunder calls ::oh, I am so sorry, what time is it there? - they always say, with this ridiculous insincerity:: I am...
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temptess:
Why were you gray?
And I in NO way called you up shouting! You asked me to do something for you and did not give me the appropriate information. I emailed the question... What is wrong with you?
Sheesh!
And I in NO way called you up shouting! You asked me to do something for you and did not give me the appropriate information. I emailed the question... What is wrong with you?
Sheesh!
koolthing:
I wasn't talking about you!
I was talking about Sharisse...
*ouch*
I would NEVER say anything about YOU like that.
Promise.
I was talking about Sharisse...
*ouch*
I would NEVER say anything about YOU like that.
Promise.
Is it true that you never really appreciate what you have until it is gone, or at least slipping from your grasp...I feel that way about my sanity these days...
Mike, Jason and I are trying to drink away our SARS exposure in Thorbekeplein - we did eat some kangaroo earlier, but most of the evening has been consumed by electronic pinball, horror stories of...
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Mike, Jason and I are trying to drink away our SARS exposure in Thorbekeplein - we did eat some kangaroo earlier, but most of the evening has been consumed by electronic pinball, horror stories of...
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