kobi

I hate that my ex gets popped into my head every now and then. Together for 10 years (thats a long time buy the way) and then she decides that maybe she likes chicks. Not a big deal though, same as a guy. She then decides that she does love me and that she wants to be with me again.... I foolishly say OK I love you We've had nice walks on the beach many romantic moments half a life time together its ok that you wanted to fuck around. so a week goes on the she disapears for a few days! I worry the shit out of myself cuz I don't know what happened to her. I call her Parants (only becouse I know them well and this is unusuall} they don't know were she is.

when she gets back she calls me sayin you called? I say ya a few days ago. and she says, "oh I just decidedto go camping" I said with who? she said "by my self" I said couldn't you tell me b4 you left? "i didnt think Id be gone that long."

turns out she was with someone else.

I don't understand why she couldnt just end it when she could. I ended up takeing her to the beach taking her to all the places she liked to frolik. puttting more memories new in my head.]

I hate her but I love her more than anything. Is this a weekness or is this a fact of life?

sad thing is I never got the rebound sex...never really wanted it at that point. still don't care. thre problem is I think maybe I need it. Dont care though.

ANy way I usually would.nt drink when I'm depressed. but today is a different story.

sorry ror the ramblin. don't mean to be depressing.

just drunk n confused.