klu

Christmas Eve.
i slept all day. no friends, no family, no gifts, no agenda.
Christmas Day,
probably the same in store.
i am becoming more like a hermit every year.
are nuerotic tendencies passed on by genetics? or are they just learned? i see where i get my overdramatic and self centered tendencies from.
i know i get my pessimism from my moms overly fake optimisim.
i wonder what i have from my dad, other then laziness and bad teeth.
i am becoming used to this feeling. will i ever be happy? will i ever be cheery? probably not, but i will die trying.